May 4

when I think continuity
I think of my bowels
when I think of your voice

I listened to
watched “Tom’s Diner”
Suzanne Vega in 1994 for
VH1 she is perfectly pale
and red haired symmetrical

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May 15

I have a memory of being in a stretch
of land hollowed out, a shallow pond-
to-be, running around the hollow with
dad and one day it being full with
water and before it being full the land
being pale and flat grass, and after, wet,
and dark, green blue and clearer in some
parts and willow trees, weeping willows,
three, gathered on the east side of the
pond and one child pulling on the
branches and wishing they would stop.

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I Read Something By Knausgaard

Knausgaard writes that pleasure is increased in value by inaccessibility, hard work, 
but the apple is an exception to the concept: the apple is easy, instant pleasure—
no work no peel no cut, all play, eat the whole thing! if you wish.
Well, you can. I am apple, sink your teeth into m  I am ap le sink your te eth into me I a
mA pple sink your teeth into me I am. Apple sink your teeth into me I am 
App le sink y o ur teet h in t o me I  m'  apple.
App le sink y o ur teet h in t o me I  m'  apple.

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