Usually, I post my weekly reviews on Fridays, but the reason I couldn't do it this time around is because I came down with the flu, and I'm trying very hard to get over it. And on top of this, my cousin died yesterday, and he's being cremated tomorrow. So I'll have to go to the memorial service at noon before continuing on to school later on in the evening. Meanwhile, I got lots of angry emails from my friends on Facebook telling me that they're tired of me telling them about my so-called "death." They told me that I should be lucky to be alive, and that life gets rough sometimes, but we need to keep going. Since they already know that I've been out of high school longer than anyone in the group, and about the troubles I had to face in those years, they've been telling me to let it go, although I don't know exactly how. Finally, they said that the reason they were telling me all this was because they cared about me, so as usual, I was wrong about everything. I hope that I can return back to my normal, funloving self, but before I can take that step, I'm scheduled to see a therapist uptown on Wednesday afternoon. Hopefully, this will be the beginning of the healing process, although it'll take some time. It certainly doesn't help that my cousin's death is taking a toll on me either. Considering all that's been happening in the last few weeks, maybe I should realize how lucky I am just to be alive, and for once, I will start following everyone's advice and do what they ask of me. Then things will turn out for the best. I still believe that it can.