Somehow I knew that it was going to happen eventually, but I'm finally getting help for getting over my past prolems once and for all. I thought that once I moved south I would put those demons behind, but so far, I haven't been able to. Finally, I'm starting to realize that most of my new classmates are actually my friends, and that they care for me, but I was too blind to see it because I was hanging on to the bad memories of middle and high school as long as I could. As much as I would like to see my real friends again, I've decided to take some time away from them, so I can refocus on being myself again. I've been wondering for the past couple of months why I can't get over my mistreatment of a decade ago when I already got over the end of my friendship with Ricky from Chicago. Originally, I thought it was because I met him three years after graduation, and we were friends for seven years, until he started calling me an idiot. But now I realize it cuts much deeper than that. Plus, all of my classmates despise him because of the comments he made, and I'm glad that they refused his offer to be their friend (that was the condition he imposed when he offered to continue our friendship, which I ultimately rejected). In the here and now, I'm finally ready to talk to a qualified therapist about my problem, and my next appointment will be on February 19. In the meantime, I'm still hoping to finish school on time and find a new job related to IT, because I now realize that this is the path I should've taken when I was applying to college the first time. I hope I don't have to drop out due to my stress problems, although I'm doing something about it. (Breathe in, breathe out...) I hope everything works out for the best, because I just want to get this over with ASAP.