ha...what you have done isn't the first time. I suppose i had grown used to it..ever since i have met you. I dunno if such a response is confusing to you, but it's true.
Oh well, you know perfectly well that i won't despise you for ANY reasons at all. But since you have chosen to deal with it yourself, i can do nothing. I can never be of much help anyway.
Tell you what, not for the first time, ppl who are in a complicated predicament let me worry, but deny me the truth. I am not demanding to know it of course, i know my place. It's just awful to know that someone you like is in trouble and you are just there..staring..not knowing what is happening or what i am suppose to do. It's this damn helpless feeling, you understand?
But don't worry, it happens all the time. I am really angry with you but for what? I dunno if you are thinking alone the same line as me, but i feel damn stupid, I had been angry with you ever since yr 7.
Nevermind... let it be. You can deal with it your own way. You can always stay away from the group. It's not like the world is falling part...i mean...i am probably the only one who is upset anyway, so it's no big deal.
"Who cares." is probably my way to go.
Deal with it your own way. No need to ask me to forgive, afterall what am i angry about?
Just a word. Sam, if you are looking at this. You are the damn idiot who got me worry last yr. Telling me half, got me damn worry, but hiding it as mysteriously as possible. You guys think you are doing good to me, oh yes.
I know i am really selfish to say this. I am indeed. I really dunno how to be more considerate. I am never there to support anyone who is in pain. All i care about how much i dunno and demand others to tell me.I am just in the way anyway.
Others tell me half coz they dun want me to worry...or they simply can't. And i the selfish inconsiderate one am always complaining, worrying, getting all upset about nothing. Does anyone understand? You guys are all idiots. You think it's funny...you think it's nothing. Yeah...me, just-self centred.
Don't say it's your fault, pong. It really isn't. I am used to the way you are at school. Aferall, you had been like this before. It shouldn't be a surprise. You are in a complicated difficult situation, ok la, everyone has something like that to face themselves. Promise me to handle it well, ok? i know you will, coz you are pong.