I'm not a very strong person. Words from those I love cut me. I can't help it. I can't control it. Like I'm so vulnerable. It's hard to live with my brother. He's just so egocentric. I think, he rationalises too much. True, we all do, to some extent. But, he's so blind to others' reasons. He trust no one's but his own judgement.
I'm starting to wonder at the possibility to move out. It would be good if affordable. With my friends, perhaps? :)
Today, I got my lowest english assessment mark. True, my listening was not excellent. Emma/Clueless was worse. My mark was in fact above the average and acceptable, but... ... I hope to do better.
I wish i can have a break. Actually, I'm having one tonight. My bedroom window is wide opened. Tonight is not as cold. You know, my window is overlooking the houses and traffic lights in the dark. Unfortunately, the stars are allengulfed by the clouds. My radio is on--loud. I don't care what's on. I need to rid the silence. I need something more than the silence. I needed a silent company.
My eyes ach a bit. Perhaps. Sometimes too much. Unavoidable, just need to learn. But perhaps one day, i can move out from this situation. Call it escape, if you will. Who knows what the future holds.
Lleyton Hewitt---his performance not as well lately? well, he'll get back up on his feet. Just you wait.