14th July 2006. The day of Kitty's birthday. I paused. Certain parts of my memory jolts back to what happpened, back then. I shaked my head, knowing I have to forget about it. It was what happened, not now. Perhaps life is like this. You experience, you learn to realise what the present is. That was then when I was in my previous relationship.My mind is less muddled with emotions and recklessly selfish motive.. I learned and I hope I won't commit the same mistake again. You might scorn at it, as I might well do if I were you (my invisible readers). But I must say that to my surprise, my character and my perception of myself and others and basically just life itself are being shaped by my experiences. I had never perceived relationship to have such a big influence on my life, such a bearing on my views. I had never known how much my development is linked to my relationship. It is indeed strange to say that! But indeed, I had learned so very much about myself and people through it.
It is third year uni. Sem 1 is over. Sem 2 is about to start. To think back to when I was in yr10, then yr11, then yr 12 HSC, then 1st and 2nd year uni, it is incredibly amazing that we grow and develop and certain parts of us change while other parts of us stubbornly refuse to change. What we all want in life is different. What we all aim at is different. Joyce committed suicide. Kath gave birth to a boy, named Justin, just this week. Life is an everchanging process. There is the movie, Click, touching yet humourous, if I may recommend it to you now, my invisible readers. Do what we do. The guiding principle is do what we do so that we won't regret later on.
Back to the present, it is now my opportunity to apply to my dream job, namely the Cth Treasury. I know the odds are big. It is very unlikely that I will ever get in. I had chosen Economics which leads to a very narrow career path. If I don't get a job in it, I could opt for less professional jobs after graduation. Or all else fail, I will need to try an academic career.
Holiday has been excellent so far. I have been going out with my boyfriend, my high school and uni friends and my family. That's all I have lol. That's all I want. Now I just need to develop a career. I am content. I think I will have no regrets.