Sometimes I wonder what I should do. Now here is my little space (homepage) to write my thoughts. People can read it. I mean I think I know who does and doesn't have access to this.
I mean...it's really weird how my family friend echoed my parents' stubborn views. Today I went to family friend's restaurant to work. When auntie found out that I had been out today, she immediately asked "dating?" (in the chinese sense of course!). I just replied: just a day out, which however meant "dating" to her. Weird. Then she pursued futher to ask me if I have a bf. No. Do I have anyone in mind of who I like? err..No. Then she went further to express her view that I should choose a boyfriend at a later stage of my life, you know, like after uni when I am working. My gosh, that's my parents' views. She then explained it's because people are very deceptive and they LIED. OH gosh. OMG. What da hell! Why was she going on about that?
I mean it really is none of her business. To her last comment, i disagreed and said that's not true but i kept my thought to myself. I thought you know, a uni boyfriend is probably less deceptive than one you would encounter at workplace or the real world in general. Oh well, a weird topic she had raised yet it made the questions, which had long bothered me, resurfaced.
What da hell am I suppose to do? As stevie said, we are old enough to make our own decisions and choices. Yes true, but I am confused. I mean my parents want the best for me. I can understand that. So am I doing something wrong?
I know what my dad is thinking of. He wants a son-in-law who is not only nice to me, but must be smart! (ie. make money!) Anyway, must be a smart guy. OH gosh, yeh wel, of course it would be nice if I would be with a guy who would be able to provide so that money wouldn't be a concern but then...com'on this is not a perfect world. Besides, if I like to be with that person, does it matter what my parents think? WEll, apparantlly yes. Or i 'll get into all sorts of conflicts with them. Too much heartahe and difficulties. Damn.
Sigh.