I was hit by a car late on Friday night, on my way home from a Christmas do in some pub.  It was on the other side of the city and I�d been drinking all day, don�t even remember leaving, but I must have been walking home, as I often do (did).  Next thing I know is I�m lying in the middle of the road, surrounded by people.  I ask some woman what happened and she says �You�ve been hit by a car�.  The ambulance came and, I don�t know if it was shock, stupidity, drunkeness, or a mixture of all three, but I refused to go with them.  They asked me a few questions in the back of the ambulance and then I asked if I could leave and walked home, covered in blood.  Everyone was staring at me.  People coming out of clubs.  A few people asked if I was alright.  �I�m fine�, I said to one guy.  �You don�t look fine�, he said.  I was really scared.  Eventually I got back to my flat and had a shower but I was still bleeding.  I went to bed and awoke in great pain the next day.  The telephone in the flat doesn�t make outgoing calls and it took me all day to get some clothes on and make it to the phone box on the corner.  I called for an ambulance.  So they took me in, gave me some X rays and said that I seem to have fractured my left knee and part of the left side of my face.  They put a splint on my leg and gave me painkillers.  They cleaned out my face, scrubbed it, which was very painful.  The nurse said it was worse because the wound was over 12 hours old.  They put dressings on my face and let me out.  I hobbled down the rainy street at 11pm, just as all the pubs were getting out, feeling like the Elephant Man.  My face is a mess, although the guy at the fracture clinic I went to a couple of days ago said it might not necessarily scar (which probably means that it will).  He gave me some antibiotics for it.  There�s what looks like a pretty deep bit on my forehead which he said could cause a scar.  So I got home for Christmas eve, but spent Christmas day alone in my room, with members of my family coming in to see me occasionally.  In pain.  My head aches all over, my left arm�s in pain, my left leg�s in the splint and I�m using crutches.  And everytime I look in the mirror I don�t recognise what I see.  I haven�t cried yet.  I think I�m still in a state of shock, almost a week after it happened.  But I�m worried about the possible long-term effects of this and wondering if it was my fault that it happened at all.
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