It's Over
A Vignette of Dana
Post-ep for "The Cut-Man Commeth"

By Kasey

It's over.  It's really, truly over.  After almost sixteen years, it is no longer.

I tried apologizing.  I told him I wasn't angry anymore.  I said I was stupid and wrong to have imposed the dating plan on him.

And so I took a chance.  I asked him if he would go out with me if I were to ask him out.  He said not that night, that i should ask another dya.

I won't.  For the amount of grief he's caused me in the past few months, nothing could make it worth it.

The scary thing is, I'm starting to realize he's just as bad as Gordon.  NOt in his actions, of course.  But I never cried as much in the six months I dated Gordon as I have in the past six days over Casey and Pixely.

I love him.  In spite of everything, I love him more than I love anyone.  And I think that's what makes it so hard.  Loving him and knowing I'm not the one he loves back.  Just like when he married Lisa.

I suppose I should be used to it.  After all, I dealt with it for ten year.s  But, for a time, he loeved me back.  And I got used to it.  And that's why it's upsetting me so much more than before.

I just wish he understood.  maybe then he would've said yes.

But he didn't.

So goodbye, Casey McCall.  And take your heart with you.