We're Done
A Vigentte of Natalie
Post-ep to "Dana Get your Gun"

By Kasey

Numbness keeps sweeping over me, from head to feet, as though it's a constant wave rolling in from the ocean.  Numbness and Denial, twin tsunamis destined to make me crumble.

It's just so hard to believe.  Wait, amend that.  I've seen it coming for a long time.  Things between us had just...changed.  Last year, we were so happy togethe.r  Recently, it seemed like all we ever did was fight.  So I can't say I'm surprised.  Just unprepared.

I don't know.  I half expected him to say "No" when I asked if we were done.  But he said "Yes" and went back into the control room as if nothing had happened.  But so much had happened in that one C-Break. 

Everyone keeps giving me this look, like "I'm so sorry, I guess you two just weren't meant to be."  It's driving me nuts.  I guess I should've expected it, since I myself was giving Dana that look when she broke up with Gordon.  And yet I'm still surprised by ti.

It's strange, but Jeremy keeps acting like he's amazed I'm not denying the breakup.  But it was different last time.  Last time, there was no reason for us to break up, other than him needing time to think.  But there are so many reasons this time.  enough that I could fill pages writing them down.

We'd fallen into a rut lately, a rut that was too high to climb out of.  Or high enough that Jeremy found it a safe place and didn't want to climb out.  Who can say which it was for sure?

The fact is, maybe this was all for the better.  maybe it really wasn't meant to be.  I have reached the end of a hallway, only to find another door leading off in another direction.  Who knows where the door might lead?  So goodbye, Jeremy.  And good riddance.