A long time ago, I used to be happy. I don't know exactly when it changed. It just seemed that one day my life was great and the next day I'm dragging my ass to the bathroom everyday. Some days I'm throwing myself in the shower so I can wake up, other days I don't even bother, and go to the studio with what I fell asleep in. The funny thing is, no one noticed. Not my friends, not even my bandmates, who over a course of several month, live with me. I think that's the sad thing, that my happiness is the same as my depression, that or I have to find new friends and bandmates. I'd rather not, I like them and they're the reason why I haven't fallen further into despair.

I had someone, very special to me. This person was my life, my happiness. I lived for this person, and I thought this person lived for me. How wrong could I ever be? I was stupid to ever think that one person could rule my life and I would be happy forever. What an idiot! Look what they did to me, I don't care anymore. I've learned my lesson, and I'm probably better for it. All those people out there who have someone and are happy, they're just fooling themselves until the inevitable. When they're world comes crashing down and one of them is left shattered, a shell of a person. It is then that they see the error of their ways and go on. What type of person they are afterward isn't for sure, but they will be different. See I've learned that lesson, I just haven't moved on. I haven't found that person who I will be from now on.

For now, I'll just be here, I'll be Kyo.

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So yeah, again that's all I have. I have a pairing already set, it's just the matter of actually writing it. . .

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