Buck and I met about a year ago. I was a random chat for him. I accepted the chat request, but, to be honest, I wasn't very interested. Buck is almost five years younger than I am. I'd never talked with younger guys on the net. I am not sure why, but I just didn't.

Buck was very persistant. His presence was always there. I would be off line for a while, or not be online when he was, but he always left messages or emails. He would talk to me about the guys I was dating, or what I was doing, but he never judged me or left me. He would always ask for pictures and tell me how beautiful he thought I was. We became really good friends. He always talked as though we had a future. Buck said we would meet at Niagra Falls *s*. I played along... thought he was insane!

As we got closer, I began thinking HOLY COW!... I LOVE this man *s*. I wasn't sure if he felt the same way. I kept waiting for him to tell me how he felt, but he didn't say, so finally I said "what the hell" and I told him how I felt. He quickly responded back! I still wasnt happy. I wanted to hear him say how he felt, in his voice. We really hadn't talked much on the phone at that point, only like two short calls.

I bought phone cards (he still had a live in girlfriend, and I lived in the same house with my ex-husband... YIKES!) and we were on the phone constantly. Buck and I had the most wonderful conversations, and I swear, we couldn't tell each other that we loved the other enough! It was wonderful. Finally I moved back to New York, about four hours from my parents house. Buck lived in Canada. I knew if I were close enough it wouldnt take long for him to get to me. I told him I wanted to wait until April to meet. That was in December. He said he was coming the day after Christmas. I was sooo scared!

Finally the day came and I was running around my house trying to get ready when the phone rang! HE WAS HERE!!!! And of course I wasnt ready yet! I hurried and drove like a crazy woman to the meeting site... a department store parking lot. When I pulled in I could see his jeep parked waaaaayyyy over on the other side. I was praying "PLEASE God like him like me....PLEASE let this be good!!" As I pulled up he was facing me, a big smile on his face. I was still so scared. I looked over at him, smiled, and stuck out my tongue *s*. I thought that was something he wouldn't soon forget! We got out of our cars and within a few seconds he was holding me and kissing me. It was the most wonderful feeling of my entire life. I couldn't have fallen any deeper in love with him... right then and there it happened!

We spent the next two days talking and touching and just looking at each other. I have never felt so loved, so safe, so content, in my entire life. Just being with him makes me happy. Just knowing he's mine makes me want to scream it to the world! And loving him... well, that just plain melts me into a puddle *s*

It was the most awful feeling watching him drive away when our two days together were over. It wasn't long enough for me, but I knew he would be back. The next night he called and asked me how soon we could get together again. I asked him if he could get to my house in five minutes. He came back two days later and we spent New Years together. This is going to be the best year!

I haven't seen Buck in three weeks but only a week to go until we're together again! I'm going to his house to spend an entire week. I cant wait! (Did I forget to mention... there is now NO live in girlfriend...). Although we talk on the phone, ICQ or net meeting everyday, it just isnt enough. I am way too greedy now that I have touched him. I'm a lucky girl. I've found my soulmate, the love of my life... no doubt about it... Buck is the man of my dreams *s*

Poison Ivy