Moe and I talked at length about the old love that had reappeared in my life. I told him the whole story... beginning to end. After hearing the torrid tale, he encouraged me to write the guy off. I agreed, it was probably the best thing to do. The next day I composed a final "good-bye" email to Jeff.

With so much going through my mind and happening in my life at the moment, I decided not to ask the "chance meeting" man out to dinner. I'd rather concentrate on my new internet aquaintance, John. John and I are emailing and talking on the phone a few times a week. I like the direction in which things are moving, find myself more and more attracted to him, and hope we get the opportunity to meet sometime after the first of the year.

Email cometh...

Hi cutie,

Did you get Jack's message? Anyone with brains could figure out it was really Moe and not Jack. Your sight (our story) is fine by me, and if you think that the people want to hear Moe's side, then I guess I could write it but it maybe slow coming. Anyway cutie I guess that I'll let you go for now. aaahhh... parting is such sweet sorrow... CYA cutie!

Moe

Jack's message?? I couldn't figure out what Moe was talking about... until I visited the love@firstbyte site and just happened to check out my guest book. He continues to surprise me occasionally... parting is such sweet sorrow... I'd never known him to quote from the classics. In any event, Moe finally had the opportunity to read the entire "meeting mr. right" adventure... our story.

Cutie,

Apparently this Moe guy is a little confused, but still a sweet guy. Never count out the possiblity of love finding a way, no matter where that "love" leads. I thought the story was well written. Don't change a thing, well maybe the picture... can't see his eyes good enough!! Well cutie this is all for now.

Jack Burton

And I replied:

Moe,

I try not to count out any possibilities, well, at least those that aren't impossible anyway! Not sure what you're trying to say... and nope, I'm not gonna make any assumptions or guesses. Okay, I lied. Are we talking about Jeff here? Maybe his situation is going to change for him soon... and for us. That's what he implied when we last talked. Maybe thats where "love" is leading me, or where love will find me. Maybe I've just been too blind to see it. Maybe you're right... maybe I shouldn't count out any possibilities. I think I should email him again (??).

hugs,
Karyn

When Moe and I talked on the phone he mentioned that if he doesn't make it in this new position, he would at least have plenty of money saved, enough to come here again for a visit... and gee, since a whole roll of film with pictures of D.C. had been lost by the photo lab, well... Was he hinting at something?? He said, "You don't want to see me again, do you??" Of course I'd like to see Moe again, he's a lot of fun and I think of him as one of my best friends. A trip out west might be good for me too. I told Moe that I just might make a journey in that direction in March or April. There seemed to be some excitement in his voice as we talked about the possibility of visiting again.

I'm tired of trying to figure out what it all means. It's a guessing game with Moe most of the time, wondering what he's feeling and thinking... hidden meanings, having to make assumptions, double talk, innuendo's, avoiding certain subjects altogether. We agreed to keep the lines of communication open to see where things may lead. Problem is, we haven't talked about our relationship since meeting real time in early October. Its a little uncomfortable at times, not quite knowing where things stand... to tip toe around certain subjects, feeling as though you don't have the freedom to speak what's on your mind. It would be much easier if we could talk, just get everything out in the open. Its strange, the two of us can talk about anything and everything... except us.

We'll see what the new year, and spring, brings.