The Risk I Took To Love You
I've written these words to help you
know
The love, pain, and hurt that I never
did show.
I knew your Friend, my Brother was
he,
I was aware of that fact that you didn't
know me.
After some time, he introduced me to
you.
How surprising that we became friends
too.
At that time I had no feeling of this
sort.
I guess it's because - for me you were
short.
Not only that, but you were older than I.
It looked really funny when it was me
you stood by,
But after a while of laughter and fun,
I had this feeling that I knew was too
dumb.
I started to like you - I don't know why.
You just gave me a feeling that made
me soar high.
I knew in my heart that I couldn't let
you know,
Because of the risk, I kept it an
easy-going flow.
The days after
that, our friendship was great,
But then I thought, "What if I was too
late?"
I gave it more time, more
consideration,
In order that I would make a wise
decision.
I knew you wouldn't like me; the fact
was so real.
But what would I do with the emotions
I feel?
I gave it a try, but not so clearly to you,
I just thought that I would give you a
clue.
I was afraid if I told you, my newest
friend,
Our fun and laughter would come to
an end.
Then it came the time to speak my
heart,
Even though I
knew that our friendship would grow
apart.
When I told you that day, you took it so
well,
No longer in that decision would I have
to dwell.
The weeks after that went by so fast,
But I knew that one day our friendship
would no longer last.
Soon I started to feel nothing like
before,
I guess you could say I liked you even
more.
But soon after a while, it started to
come true,
Farther apart I became from you.
At first I didn't know what was going
on,
But as soon as I stepped into reality, I
heard our song
Now you are just a picture, a dream in
my mind,
But trust me at times I'm happy when
it's your memories I find
When I
remember those times and recall your
voice,
I think of the PAST because I really
have no choice.
I tell you that at many times, you've
wiped away my tears,
And at many other times, you've
thrown away my fears.
Please don't ask why because I can't
exactly say how,
But it doesn't really matter because
you're gone from me now.
Just remember that at anytime,
anywhere,
To me you could look because I'll
always care.
Even though we went our own separate
ways,
I'll never forget our happiest of days.
Tell me your problems, I'll understand.
Tell me your needs, and I'll reach out
my hand.
But now that's just a fantasy, as true as
it may seem.
Yes, you my old
friend are just a dream.
For always I've wanted your hands to
hold,
Because I wanted your friendship, it
was more valuable than gold.
For one year, there were things you had
said,
That with your words and love, I was
led
To show you kindness and gentle care,
And to treat in a way that I knew was
always fair.
I wondered many times about the
friendship we had
What wrong did I do, to make it so
bad?
I gave everything you wanted, almost
anything.
I gave you my heart, my everything.
But I've lost you now, you're gone
forever,
Just remember that I'll forget you
never.
Yes, loving you WAS worth the risk,
though it broke my heart in two.
But I'm glad that I had taken it
because it brought me closer to you.
-------Ashley Marie O'Bier-------