| August 25, 2006 Title - Played the Fool How I feel like, "I've been played the fool?" Months ago... I started going to the bar in town, Fudgienuckles. I saw him there. An acquaintance from my past. A classmate of whom I've never really spoken to, But wanted to have a conversation with. Just to chat and nothing more, But we never said much more than "Hi!" "How are you today?" "That's great." Until one day, I just walked in and he bought me a drink. He then bought me another, And we began a grand night. One of laughter, Conversation, And friendship. Until we went for a walk. Down the streets of town. He wanted to hold my hand. I let him hold my hand. With thoughts piling in my head, "This is wrong." "I can't be holding his hand." "We shouldn't be doing this." "We're only just friends." With a hug good bye, That night was at an end. But then a month later... We found another time. Another time after bar closing. We went for another walk. One much longer, And now he started having my heart. I flirted with him so. Holding his hand once again. Something I once felt was forbidden. Once the walk came to an end, And we were 'bout to bid our adieus, I wanted to kiss him, But stop in my tracks. Thinking, "No can't." "Wrong it will be." Then he kissed me instead. And my head said to my heart, "Wait a minute." "What's going on?" "There's something more I'm missing." But, yet, We are not together. He doesn't want me like that, And I think I'll accept that. I find that I like him more each day, And every minute he's around, But it's obvious that he just wants to fool around. I have to forget my feelings, Leave them behind, 'Cause it's not going to go any further. I'm realizing he's just a player. And all I ever wanted, Was just a simple conversation. Now it's tears I shed, For something that will never be. I am the fool. He played me as the fool. |