Why did you have to go?Why did you have to make me so blue? Why did you even say the words I love you? Why did you make me care?
All this pain I feel inside is real if you could only feel what I feel now.
You left with no good bye and now you can't even call to say hi.
At times I wonder why you were even brought into my life. Then other times I thank God I was put in YOUR life.
They say every thing happens for a reason, so I now wonder why were we brought together?
Was it so I could learn to love? but then I ask myself why love if there is only heart ache?
The time we spent together was a little piece of heaven on earth, your laughter, your smile, was all a gift sent from up above.
Even though your gone I don't feel totally alone. I have our memories , memories that pull me through my darkest hours.
When I feel like I can't go on I just think of how I was once loved.
~ I wrote this when I was about 13yrs.~
~ Connie Pino~
I don't even know why but I can't take it any more..
On and on and on I go when I wanna go away to a place very far away.
Where people don't judge you for who your with or for who you are.
I can't stand my life any more I wanna die, die, die just not slow.
I want it to be fast and over I wanna go to sleep an never wake.
My heart is breaking I can't take no more. My life is just a whole pile of bull shit.
I fell in love with someone who is just a player of emotions.
I have a family that is too busy for me.
I have a sister who is like my child.
All this stress I just want to break. I can't take it any more Im goin to snap. Please, please, please take me far away from here it's hell! I just wanna die, die, die.
All I see is black, kind of like looking down an endless tunnel or hole.
I once say colors an people but now all I see is blackness. I see blank faces and tears. I am a walking zombie. Not seeing, feeling, hearing, or caring.
Im in a black hole that I can't get out of. Instead I seem to sink deeper and deeper. Falling faster and faster. When it will finally stop I don't know.
At times I feel like Im on a merry go round just spinning and spinning out of control. When will it stop? When did I get to this place? When did I stop caring about myself? How did I get to this place?
Im in black hole that I can't get out of. I just sink deeper and deeper, falling faster and faster. When it will finally stop I do not know.
Hoping there's a light at the end of the tunnel. Not seeing one at all. All I see is black, black, black. All this darkness will I ever make it out? I don't think so, Im too deep in the hole!
~by: Connie Pino 4-15-02~
Im so tired of fighting so tired of crying.
Tired of getting hurt.
I'm tired of giving but not getting. Tired of being alone.
Im tired of being alone. Im tired of going on.
Too tired to even fight too tired to even stick up for my rights.
Im tired of being used and abused. Tired of having nothing to do.
Im tired of being called a bitch. Tired of not giving a shit.
Tired of not having no one around. Tired of feeling lost and drowned.
Tired of feeling empty and dead. Tired of all the thoughts in my head.
I'm just so tired I don't want to go on.
Just please let me die...please please just leave me alone!
~by: Connie Pino ~