Angel Inside of Me

By Katie

 

The angel sleeps twixt the holds of the heart

And in my soul sleeps an angel, afraid to awake

Afraid to take flight in the whispers and folds of the wind

Afraid to awaken from the silent and deadly dream she holds tightly in her grasps

For the fear of going to by herself, fighting, bleeding holds her mind tight.

 

I am but an angel afraid of awakening

I am a coward; I am a traitor to my loved ones

If only I could hold their sweet images in my mind’s eye again

From my eyes to my mind, to hold their sweet images above the hole in my heart

I would mend the pain; I would break down the barrier.

 

But yet my loved ones remain lost twixt the hands of evil

And my heart does stay in frightened sleep for the air I breathe

Poisons my every thoughts, poisons my every movement

Are they alive? Are they breathing?

Are they taking in the sites before death shall become?

 

I’m too afraid to walk in the footsteps of a savior

For I cannot save their life with mine

So with all of my knowledge, with all of my heart

I shall push it all away, I shall push I shall pull

Until life itself has ended, and Chaos has been destroyed.

 

But yet as I stand here afraid to speak, afraid to move

I know deep inside as I watch the past pursue through the pain

I realize my past was right, my present was wrong

I touch her cheek; I whisper soft words of encouragement

I shall die before I shall lose lives to hold.

 

And as I leave for a future dark and dreary

I can feel the wings inside of me, the symbols on my fuku

Begin to shake and flutter

I know now that I am awakening to face the pain, to face the bleeding hands to grasp

I know that my past has saved my future

 

No not my future, their future

For I shall fight, I shall bleed

Until I see their faces, I hold his face in my hand

Until I brush away their tears, their fears

I am a mother, a friend, a lover, a soldier

 

And its time I showed it all.