Title: Separation, Desperation
Author: Lisa
Chapter: 2
Rating: G
Author's Notes:
Hey everyone! Here's a very short chapter 2. Hope you will enjoy, and 
please 
sned me any comments and suggestions!
Disclaimers: Sailor Moon and the others don't belong to me, but this 
story 
does.
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The phone rang in the morning, just when I woke up. Something told me 
it was 
Mamo-chan, instinct I guess. Should I pick it up. No, I can't bear to 
hear 
that he has found a new love. I don't want to believe. Then, Mamo-chan 
means 
so much to me...I don't want to hurt him...maybe I should pick it up.

When I did, it stopped ringing. I guess Mamo-chan gave up, and thought 
I 
wasn't home. I sobbed quietly by the small table, clutching the phone 
tight. 
"Mamo-chan...what will happen to us now?" Luna walked in at that 
moment, with 
the same concerned expression on her face. She knew that something was 
wrong, 
probably a fight with Mamoru...boy it was way worst than that...wasn't 
it?

The girls had planned a surprise trip together to the arcade. They said 
something like friends need to be together, especially if one is 
feeling 
down. They were good friends I would ave to agree to that, but I guess 
it 
would be better it I could have time ti organize my thoughts and plans. 
At 
least I had friends. Some people need support in times like this...but 
you 
could say I wasn't one of them.
The girls chatted for a little while, trying to get me involved the 
best they 
can. All I would say is yes and no. Guess I wasn't cooperating all that 
much. 
Who wouldn't if they were in a situation like this? No one could make 
me as 
happy as Mamo-chan made me. He made me laugh, brightened up my world. 
What 
would I do without him? The experience of being rejected...that is what 
I am 
experiencing now. I wished I wasn't.

"Usako?" A very familiar voice broke into my thoughts. Multiple gasps 
were 
heard, followed by silence. Complete silence. "Usako..." I turned 
around 
slowly...to be face to face with no other than...Mamo-chan. He looked 
so 
worried, concerned about me. Is that possible? Could he still care 
about 
me...for a friend...or is it more than that?

"Mamo-chan..." I whispered. This time, he was here, when I called to 
him. 
"I..." Should I continue and confront my fears? Or should I run away 
and 
forget about this whole mess? Of course, as any typical in love girl 
that I 
was, I chose the alternate. I ran away from my fears and doubts rather 
than 
sitting there, and hearing out Mamo-chan's side of this. Did I make the 
wrong 
choice? 

As I ran, I could hear Mamo-chan running after me, yelling for me to 
stop. I 
wanted to, really I did. It seemed like my legs weren't cooperation. 
I began to feel tired after a good fifteen minutes of running. 
Mamo-chan 
close behind me. The weirdest thing is that he didn't even look tired 
at all! 
Maybe I should've listened to my coach about track....just a thought.

I couldn't run any further, so I stopped. So there I was, in the middle 
of a 
road, at the moment trying to catch my breath. "Okay, you win 
Mamo-chan. I 
can't run anymore." I managed to get out between a few deep breathes.
He stood there, looking as handsome as ever I might add, staring at me. 
He 
nodded. "Good. Usako...it isn't what you think..please." His eyes 
pleaded 
with me. He looked so sincere...so loving. What do I do? I still love 
Mamo-chan, nothing can change that. "Alright Mamo-chan...say what you 
wish. 
I'll listen."
"Arigato Usako." I see Mamo-chan smiling gratefully towards me. The one 
that 
makes your heart melt. ‘Oh Mamo-chan..." I thought sadly.

"Usako...about yesterday. It's not what you think...I wasn't...she 
wasn't... 
Aishiteru Usako. No one can replace you. Please...trust me." I looked 
into 
his stormy blue eyes. They were so...desperate. I miss him. Why can't 
things 
be back to normal? Why did he... Is it really his fault though? Or is 
it my 
fault for not trusting him?
"Usako..." He whispered gently, putting a hand on my shoulder.
I shook my head. "Please Mamo-chan...I need time to think for awhile." 
Did I 
really? Or was it just an excuse for not confronting him?

I could see Mamo-chan nodding. "Hai, you do. Take all the time you 
need. But 
please...don't make a choice we would all regret..." He turned away 
from me, 
and left silently. Oh, how I wanted to chase after him...somehow my 
feet 
wouldn't move.
I went home instead. 

When I dragged myself home, my head spinning around fast. I lay down on 
my 
bed, sobbing not-so-quietly. Luna walked in, probably heard my crying 
downstairs.

"Usagi-chan, don't worry...everything will be alright." Luna purred 
comfortingly, making me feel better instantly.
"How did you find out?" I asked curiously.
"The girls. They're also very worried about you, Usagi-chan." Luna 
grinned. 
"Besides, you and Mamo-chan will be together again, count on it." 
That's what 
everyone thinks. That things between and I will work out. And I do want 
it to 
work out. Why can't I trust Mamo-chan like I used to? "Aishiteru 
Mamo-chan." 
Mamo-chan will always be my love...I can't abandon him like that..I 
love him 
too much. Tomorrow will be brighter for us that's for sure. I wonder 
how long 
Mamo-chan can stay...

The next day was Monday. School was boring as usual. I thought it would 
never 
end. It did...a eternity later.

I went straight to the arcade where I knew Mamo-chan probably was. We 
needed 
to have a talk.
He was there alright, talking with Motoki.

"So Mamoru, how long will you be staying? A few weeks, month?" I heard 
Motoki 
ask.
"Uh...I don't know yet. I've told the professor where I was going, so 
maybe a 
couple weeks, a month at tops." I brightened. Mamo-chan and I could 
catch up 
on old times...we had a lot to catch up on. That is, if everything 
works out 
smoothly today. I walked over to Mamo-chan and Motoki. Motoki took the 
hint 
that we needed to be alone and left quickly.

"Mamo-chan..I knew you I would find you here." I said calmly. He 
nodded, and 
pointed to the door. I got the picture. This wasn't exactly what I 
would call 
a ‘private' place. So we decided to go to my favorite place in 
Tokyo...the 
park.

We reached the park after a few minutes. I was beginning to feel 
nervous. 
Neither of us had said a word to each other. 

Sitting down an a bench, I heard Mamo-chan take a deep breath. 
"Usako...have 
you decided yet?" He asked quietly.
I smiled. "Hai, I have. Mamo-chan...you know I will love you and always 
will." I paused, trying to see his reaction. "And?" He asked.
I smiled wider. It seemed like he didn't get it yet. "And I trust you 
fully. 
But I was afraid that I wasn't good enough for you...that you would 
find 
someone better. That's why I got all mad and...jealous when I heard 
that girl 
in your apartment." I looked down. I was ashamed that I didn't trust 
Mamo-chan. If I did, would I be suspecting him of finding another girl?

"Usako..." He stopped, not knowing what to say. "I understand. You know 
what 
Usako?" He looked up at me, his face slightly flushed. "I...was scared 
you 
would find someone too. I don't deserve you Usako. You're my love...my 
light. 
You mean so much to me, and I...it doesn't seem like I'm doing a good 
job of 
showing what I really feel. You have every right to think what you 
did..." 
I looked at him, shocked. He had thought that I would...find someone to 
replace him? "Mamo-chan, I'm the one who doesn't deserve you." I 
beamed, 
tears of happiness sliding down my cheeks.
"Oh Usako. Aishiteru." With that, we embraced tightly. The sun was 
setting, 
the moon rising. As we hugged under the bright moon, and glittering 
stars, 
looked up, silently thanking them for restoring my love to me.

I don't know how long we just sat there hugging each other. I didn't 
care. 
"Mamo-chan. Aishiteru Mamo-chan." He looked down at me lovingly. 
"Aishiteru 
Usako...my little bunny." 
Our lips met in a deep kiss. One full of desire, passion. The one that 
makes 
my heart melt. 
"Mmmm..." I mumbled as Mamo-chan played with my hair. "Mamo-chan?"
"Hai?"
"I've been told that separation makes relationship weaker. But in 
truth, it 
doesn't does it? At least not for us..."
"Hai Usako. No matter where I am, I'll always love you. Because you're 
my 
little bunny, and always will be."
I smiled happily. My life was bright again. All thanks to 
Mamo-chan...my love.
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Okay, now how was that? I know it was sad, but then I made it 
romantic...or I 
tried to anyway. I hope you've enjoyed this fic, and please give me 
comments. 
I really want to know if my writing has improved at all in my 3 months 
of 
writing fan fics, so please tell me. My e-mail address is 
LisaZUMstories@aol.com. You can send basically anything you want to me. 
Comments, suggestions, etc. Well, thanks for taking the time to read my 
story. Ja ne!
This story written and posted January, 2001