Title: Love Through Time - Volume 1, Epilogue Author: Sailor Europa E-mail: slr_europa@yahoo.com Rating: G ******************************************************************************** OK, ALL AN WILL BE AT THE BOTTOM! IMPORTANT FOR ALL TO READ (Not really, I just wanted a little gimmick to get everyone to read them....) slr_europa@yahoo.com http://www.geocities.com/Tokyo/Dojo/5870/femmey.html ******************************** Love Through Time ~ A Serena And Darien Saga Volume One ~ * ~ EPILOGUE ~ * ~ I can't say that I remember too much of that last day. I sat by the window in our entryway for almost the rest of the time the sun was up. In a away I was glad that Selene was still fairly sick, for I didn't want her to see me so fallen. I watched his carriage ride away, after he locked up the front doors. I didn't ask whether he would ever be back, I knew in my heart that he wouldn't. As much as it hurt to admit, we weren't meant to be. I knew we were soulmates, and I can't describe how blissful it feels to know you've found that person who can make you feel whole. But just because things should happen a certain way, doesn't mean that they will, and I'm sorry to say I learned that the hard way. Things ventured on in my life, the next year came, the time passing slowly. I told Patrice a few days after Darien left about the resolution of our relationship. She was sympathetic of course, and a little relieved that she didn't have such a curious secret to keep any longer. It was hard, relaying the events of that day to someone, and I put it off as long as I could, but I had to get it out. Next to the day everything ended, that afternoon I cried the hardest I ever have in my whole life. I thought I should have been completely dry and void of tears, but I surprised myself. I haven't breathed a word of the affair to anyone since that day, and I even made a vow to keep that record. Things in my life progressed, although nothing really changed. Harlan continued to play the doting father, and the vengeful husband in our household. All the confidence and independence that had overwhelmed me while Darien was present seemed sucked out of me, and it felt as if he took both my heart _and_ my backbone. I couldn't stand up for myself anymore, and I often found myself crying myself to sleep most nights, as Harlan was out at his club, although to this day I still believe he was constantly with his mistress. About a year and a half after that fateful day, I received a letter. The envelope had no return address, but was made out to me, and I knew immediately who wrote it. The words forever changed my life. Dear Serena, I know I risk a lot by writing you this, but forgive me for this is too important to keep in. Not a day has passed that I have not missed you. I find myself reliving each day we spent together, and each night dreaming about the one night we spent in each others' arms. I constantly drift into another world, the remembrance of our time together keeping me from sleeping as I lie in bed each night. You are the one that keeps me breathing, makes me rise in the morning and try to sleep at night. I can only thank you for the swift time we spent together, and thank God for your entrance in my life. I can't imagine living life lost and solitary as I had before. And even though my life right now is nothing compared to what it could have been, had I had you with me, I know now I never will be alone again. Serena, as much as it hurts me to tell you this, I feel it's only right I do it. In the time that I have been looking after my friend, his younger sister and I have grown close, and have consequently decided to be married, however it is nothing more than a marriage of friendship. Even though I can only imagine a life with you, I can't see myself spending the rest of my life alone either. I will always belong solely to you, and nothing can stop the love that I have for you, but this is how it has to be. I'm sorry it won't be you with me for the rest of my life, and you'll never know how much it hurts to picture my life without your smile in it. I miss you more each day, and it hurts me so badly to imagine you still with someone else. I will always love you, and I imagine that is why I want to be the one to tell you this. Please remember that, when you're lonely and afraid, know that my heart, soul and mind are yours fully and forever, and not even two loveless marriages can come in between that. I want you to know that if you ever need me, you can contact me. Night or day, I will be here for you, no matter the circumstances. Please remember that, but above all, remember that I love you, more than anything in this world, and I will always be here for you. Farewell, to the one and only person who has captured my heart. I cried the whole day I received the letter. ********************** *sobs* Oooooh, it's over! Well, the volume at least. OK, as promised, here is my superfluous Authors Notes....... 1) I know in the beginning of this volume I said this was suppose to take place in the 1500's. In case you couldn't tell, I changed the time, to the mid 1700's. This was for two reasons - One, if I kept that time, there would be about 7 volumes, and as much as I love this story, I would never be able to keep my attention on it for that long. Two, I knew almost nothing about that time and it's culture attached to it, so I changed it to one I could grasp more. 2) The next volume will be around Selene's future daughter. I'm not sure I'd be able to work that into the text, so I thought I'd just get that out now. 3) PROPS TO MY BUDS SAILOR ELYSIA AND SIDNEI! You both are the ones who kept me interested in this story, and who constantly gave me criticism and inspiration that kept me going! Half of all the e-mails I get should be going to them, because I never would have finished it without them! (Especially Sidnei-chan who practically threatened my life if I didn't finish this story before starting on the others....) DOMO ARIGATOU ELYSIA-CHAN AND SIDNEI-CHAN! 4) More props for Jen Wand, Lianne, Razzz, and the newest of my fav authors, Aquemarina! They are all FABULOUS and deserve the constant praise they are always getting! GO READ THEM NOW! I MEAN IT! 5) *sighs* I've said it before, and I'll say it again. GO BUY 'AIDA'!!! Elton John in the MASTER, and I can't tell you how much inspiration I've gotten from this CD. It is fabulous and worth every penny I spent on it! GO! NOW! 6) Don't forget to read the next volume! The first installment will be out next week! 7) THANK YOU TO ALL THE PEOPLE AND READERS WHO HAVE E-MAILED ME IN THE PAST FEW WEEKS! You all are what keeps me writing, and I seriously appreciate it more than you'll ever know! AISHITERU! 8) OK, I'M DONE FOR NOW! E-MAIL ME WITH ANY THOUGHTS, COMMENTS, PRESENTS OR LETTER BOMBS TO THE FOLLOWING ADDY! - slr_europa@yahoo.com JA! Michelle Merriman