Dreaming
By Klutz
Rat: g/pg
1/1
Song fic, see song notes at end of fic.
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Takes place some day/days before Sailor V makes the scene.

	Usagi sat on by her window with her head resting on her arms.  It had been a long day, and now it promised to be a quick night, as soon as she went to sleep at least.  The night sky was a cool black lit up with hundreds of tiny stars twinkling in the darkness.  The hour was late, and she should be asleep but... there was just something about that sky, alluring, she had to watch it.  

Late at night
when all the world
is sleeping
I stay up 
and think of you
and I wish on a star
that somewhere you are
thinking
of me too.

	Kind of like how she watched Mamoru.  She didn't want to, but at the same time, she did.  It was like she was just pulled in that direction no matter what was happening, or where she was.  Like a magnet.  Usagi smiled quietly to herself.  No one knew, (though she was sure Luna suspected) how she felt about Mamoru.  She carefully worked through her arguments with him, they were timed to the second, exact, precise.  There were never any slip ups, everything was calculated perfectly.  She had her audience in the palm of her hand, though they were unknowing.  They all believed she hated or at least strongly disliked the guy.  How wrong they were.  'Honestly though, what do they expect?  A guy with eyes like that?  Okay, so he tries to cover it up and act like he doesn't care, but I know... somewhere in there, he's been hurt really badly.  Probably needs someone to talk to...  Mamo-chan...' she sighed in her mind.  The guy was confusing, irritating at times, and...well...perfect!


Cause I'm dreaming
of you tonight
'till tommorrow
I'll be holding you tight
and there's no where in the world
I'd rather be,
than here in my room, 
dreaming about,
you and me...

	If it weren't for duty, she would be a lot nicer to him, but with everything that went on every day, the battles and fights, the monsters, it was better to fake having a thing for someone impossible, like Tuxedo Kamen or Motoki-oniisan than someone she actually cared about truly, like Mamoru.  So here she was, just like everynight, looking out her window and dreaming of him.  Day in, day out, the same routine.  It was tiring, but necessary.

wonder if you ever see me
and I
wonder if you know I'm there
If you looked in my eyes
would you see what's inside,
would you
even care?

	Oh sure, she *could* just go out there and win him over, but what would happen when her communicator went off?  When she had a meeting, or when a youma interupted a date?  What then?  'Oh!  Sorry Mamo-chan, I've gotta go save the world now, you just stay right here and I'll be back in a sec, k?'  Yeah.  Right.  Besides, though he was vulnerable and seemed so needing, what about Rei-chan?  He and Rei had been going out a lot lately, he probably didn't even realize Usagi existed outside of teasing.  Usagi sighed and closed her eyes.  There was too much to think about now a days.

I just want to hold you close
but so far
all I have are dreams of you.
So I wait for the day
the courage to say
how much
I love you.

	She'd wait until the world was safe again, until Beryl was defeated.  Then she could hang out with Naru-chan again, feel free to relax and live life like every other teenager on the planet.  She'd do everything she had always wanted to do, free of deathly responsibilities and weight on her shoulders.  
	Crick.
	Usagi's eyes blinked open.  Tuxedo Kamen was kneeling in her window, only... it wasn't Tuxedo Kamen.  He wasn't wearing his mask.
	Mamoru.
	He looked weary, she nodded dumbly, moving aside so he could sit down, step in and relax.  What was he doing up at this hour anyway? 
	"I'm sorry I just..." he started, but didn't finish the sentence.  

I'll be dreaming
of you tonight
till tomorrow
I'll be holding
you tight, 
and there's no where in the world
I'd rather be,
than here in my room
dreaming about
you and me...

	She smiled.  "It's okay.  I was awake, thinking about..." she cut off and looked away, blushing slightly.  She saw him smile out of the corner of her eye, he took a deep breath and looked back at her again.  "I just felt I had to tell you.  Things have been happening lately and-"
	"I know."  she interupted.  "What's been happening at least."  He looked puzzled, but continued anyway.  
	"I just needed to something, this, before things got out of hand."  

Late at night when all the world
is sleeping
I stay up and think of you
And I still can't believe
that you came up to me
and said
I love you

	"I...love you." he said, looking away.  "I mean, you don't have to say anything, there are...complications, but I thought I should at least tell you now before..."  Usagi looked at him in surprise.  This she hadn't expected, dared dream about, but... if it wasn't a dream, then it was surely a dream come true!
	"Mamo-chan, it's okay, I should tell you something as well.  Besides who I am, at least..."  She got up and rummaged around under her pillow, bringing out two lockets.  Her transformation broach, and her star locket.  She held them out to him.  "You see, I do know what's going on... I've been there, in it."  she continued.  "And..."

I love you too.

	"I love you too, I always have, I just thought that maybe I would have to wait until Beryl was gone, there are things about this..."  She never got to finish, because Mamoru had aleady grabbed her and pulled her close, kissing her sentence away.  They might not have had time for this in the next while, and for now at least...

Now I'm dreaming with you tonight
till tomorrow,
and for all of my life,
and there's no where 
in the world
I'd rather be,
than here in my room
dreaming with you,
here with me...

Song not mine, belongs to Selena.

Kind of a bad ending huh?
MK