What is this that I feel? I've fallen for girls in the past, but none so far as her. What is it about her that does this to me? This can't possibly be healthy. As soon as I leave her side I want nothing more than to return to her. Alas I realize that this is impossible, and I find myself sliding into a deeper depression each time. The question is not how long until I see her again, but can my body put up with the toll of not being with her for that long. The stress from my life is taking it's toll. I do not know how long I can last. I really need to find a hobby.
    Why is it that I can always manage to write all the right words, yet for some reason they refuse to leave my throat when I need them the most? I can write a thousand words to describe the emotions that she makes me feel yet I can't make a simple vocalization of the words that truly matter. Perhaps it's because I know that even if I did manage just once to make such a simple statement I would still be denied the one thing I desire? Why is it that God would give one person so much control over my emotions, and yet make it so that I cannot have her?