First off, to anyone that actually got a chance to read what I wrote yesterday before I pulled it earlier this evening, I'm sorry. I wasn't thinking properly, I was being pessimistic again and not taking the facts into consideration.
    I came to a conclusion though. It's true, she was right all along. There's no way we can be happy together with this distance between us. I miss her too much already and there isn't a hell of a lot there right now, if it got more serious I'd be hurting bad.
    Yes, I would gladly take all the worlds pain upon myself, just so long as it's the physical kind and not the emotional kind, I'm tired of the emotional kind.
    Finally. I've decided something: I am good enough dammit. I deserve the greatest girl in the universe, it's just that it isn't possible right now. Regardless of what she thinks she does deserve me, and she is the most wonderful, caring, sweet, lovable, fun to be with, beautiful person I've ever met. I am special dammit, and I'm special enough, just not right now. I can wait, and bide my time. It's worth it not to fuck up horribly.