Alright, time to finish getting shit off my chest. Starting with finishing the Becky stuff...
    I guess the reason I've felt so down about myself, and like I'm worthless is because here was this girl, this beautiful wonderful girl who "loved" me. She had my heart, she would have had my body, and had my soul. She could have had everything I had, everything I'd ever have, and all I wanted was love. I loved, and continue to love her. I'd have given her anything if she'd asked, anything... and it wasn't enough to keep her. She felt I wasn't what she wanted, and because of that, I have to feel that everything I have is not enough to get the woman I love. It never has been, but I've never been so close before. Why did she do it? I don't really know, I know a couple of reasons she's given out to people, none of them really make sense to me. I guess I've just spent too long caring about love, and not enough time remembering that teenagers never truly know what it means. I don't know, maybe she did and still does love me, but is too afraid of everything the way it is now... Maybe I'm just a naive fool for thinking anyone could feel that way about me... maybe I'm not meant to have a girlfriend.
    Now let's move on to the Edith stuff...
    GET OVER YOURSELF! In my last rant I didn't say SHIT to blame you for what happened, I said you did something minor to make me mad, and then I went off with no real justification, in that whole rant I was made out to be the bad guy, because I WAS. Edith, I love you, and I am extremely sorry for what I did, why can't you accept that and realize that I know that I was wrong, and that nothing you did warranted what I did to you? Please understand that. Please.
    That's it really... I had more I wanted to go on about... but I think that'll do it.