Well alright. I know I want to write something yet again, and I seem to be out of topics, so let's talk about the weekend...
    Saturday night, I bought finger paints, yes, that's correct, finger paints, this is all for one very simple purpose, to do something cute for mothers day. Me and Sean both made cards for out mothers out of finger paints. His was much better recieved, I got a "Yea it would be cute if you were 10" response from my mother. It amazes me. She's the kind of woman who you could pull the stars from the sky for, and would be disappointed because they didn't come from a shop with a pretty package. That bothers me, because I'd rather have someone make me something from their heart then simply spend $5 on a card. That's why usually the gifts I give people are more thoughtful than expensive, because I want to get them something symbolic...
    Continuing on the weekend theme, I saw Kim perform in the high school's production of Neil Simon's Rumors, and it was quite good, I mean yea, there was one major fuck up, but I didn't really care. Honestly, Kim MADE that play, then again I'm probably biased, especially since I wasn't really paying attention to everyone else, I was too busy enjoying Kim's facial expressions. Kim, you kicked ass, I was very pleased with the whole thing, and I can't wait to hang out with you. As far as the "bribe" is concerned, it's not a bribe, it's just something that me and you can do together, I'll be damned if you're walking away with it.
    Last night I got home, and started talking to Lin, I was feeling good, and so was she, which is weird because usually when one of us is happy the other is shitty. It didn't last long, after a couple hours I just kinda felt drained and really just didn't want to be me. It's funny how when things are the best they have been for me I always seem the feel the worst... I guess it's because I'm not used to doing well, so I sabotage it...
    Then it happened, Becky showed up, and made me feel a whole lot better. For some reason, she always manages to turn up right when I need her most, I guess it's one of those fate things. Becky, I love you with all of my soul, I can't express in mere words how much you mean to me. If I even tried it wouldn't come close to conveying the feelings I have. I want to hold you so badly, I want to show you how much I love you. The day you feel the time is right for my arrival is going to be the happiest day of my life... until my arrival. I dream of you always, and I can't wait to make those dreams a reality. Everything about you screams to me not to give up, and they are right. I'm not a quitter, and I don't intend to start now.
    Edith, despite the fact that 2/3 of the women I love most are telling me you're a bitch and you suck and I shouldn't bother with you, I still give a damn. Call me crazy but I don't abandon people because they do stupid shit. So if that's what you want to do, fine do it, just remember that I said that it's stupid and not a good idea. I might talk to you about it more, if you're still speaking to me.
    Lindsay! You ROCK! hehehe, Liz told me what her mother said Marc sent you, I can't believe he did that. Your mother is gonna LOSE IT. That blows my mind. I have no way in hell to compete with that. I BOW TO MARC'S POWER AT DOING INCREDIBLY STUPID STUFF THAT'S GOING TO GET PEOPLE IN TROUBLE! Oh yea, and his mother is convinced that he's gonna buy a bus ticket to come see you. Evidently she doesn't know about our little trip. Love ya girl, don't ever change, you're close enough to perfect as it is... any closer and you'd be Becky, and frankly, I don't think anyone else can achieve that. She's the only one that can pull that off.
    I think that just about wraps it up... Liz, hope to hang with you before you go away for a while... Jenny, can't wait to see what it is you're keeping a secret... Kat, you really have done wonders to make me feel better lately. Shey-Shey it's good to hear from you again. Erika! What's up juggalette? You fuckin' rule. Megan, you kick ass, don't let anyone ever tell you that you can't be grunge.
    This weeks song is a tune that tends to find it's way into my head at least once a week. Ever since Becky and me got together way back when it's banged around in my head. I can't help wonder what the hell she sees in a loser like me, for that matter what any of my friends see in me either... anyway... Take care! Remember to sign, please.