Happy Easter...
    Today was my grandmothers funeral service. Despite the fact the minister was a little... drawn out... it was nice. I don't really care for the idea of putting dead people on display like that (open casket) but it was nice to see everyone who showed up, my family always loves to get together... There was the bit where they read the poem my cousin Amber wrote (she couldn't be there, she had to go on the Appalachian Trail) and everyone cried... well, everyone except me...
    For some reason, tears refused to come, I was sad, I didn't feel happy, but I guess for the most part, I didn't see anything wrong. Way I see it, Gram is up in heaven chillin' waitin' for us to show up. I'm sorry that she never got to see me come to Christmas with a girlfriend, but as long as we keep that tradition, she will, she'll have the best seat in the house.
    Maybe I didn't cry because I went through something so simular 15 years ago with my great grandmother. Same situation, hospital, at home care, and then she died. I guess going through it when you're 5 kinda desensitizes you to the whole thing. Last night while at my cousin Scott's, he and a couple other people were getting hammered, and he kept askin' me what's wrong, at one point he actually went so far as to say that Gram was in a better place, and that I shouldn't worry about it, I looked right at him and said that it had nothing to do with Gram, because I was alright with that. Death is a part of life, and I deal with it... that or this is going to hit me HARD when I realize what happened.
    Alright... Time for the rest of this...
    Sean: Thanks so frigging much for everything, you've been a true brother, and I owe you so much for this weekend, covering for me despite your injuries Friday, and helping me through everything, going so far as to secure me a ride home, offering to take me up there, I love you bro, you're the best friend I've had in a long time...
    Lindsay: I know you're out in the U.K. right now, but you'll be back to read this soon enough. Thanks for the e-mail, knowing that you thought about me for a couple minutes while you were out there certainly makes me feel better. Can't wait to hear all about it, and I mean hear.
    Kim: I know you haven't been able to talk to me about it, and you've got a lot going on, thanks for your sympathy when you gave it, I'll be sure to call you tomorrow.
    Crystal: Thank you so much for talking to me and offering to talk about the whole thing, pity I took it so well, we could have used some time together...
    Liz: Sorry I missed seeing you this weekend, but, well, ya know... thanks for the thought, and talk to you soon.
    Marc: Thanks for what sympathy you gave, can't wait to work on the secret project ::wink::
    Kat: Thanks for being there for me first, before everyone else.
    Jenny: Thanks for all the sympathy you gave me, and I'll take a rain check on those hugs.
    Erika: You sooo kick ass juggalette. Thanks for talking to me, and the well wishes.
    Shey-Shey: Um... I know you did something, but I'll be damned if I can remember what...
    Heather: Thanks for keeping me from thinking about too much, and all those fresh pictures.
    God: Thanks for what you've given me, some of the most kick ass friends on the planet. You rock.
    Joey Ramone (R.I.P.): for punk music.
    Gram(R.I.P.: For all the wonderful memories...
    My family: For being so damned cool.
    Sean's family: I don't know how to say this... but thank you for being there for me Friday, it meant so much to me to have you be willing to go to such lengths for me. Sean is lucky to have a family like you, and I am lucky to have a friend like him. I love you.
    Finally... I think I should say one last thing...
    Becky: I'm sorry for what has happened. For what I have done, I apologize, you know that though. I'm glad me and you are going to actually try the friendship thing this time, hopefully everything will work out well, and if we decide that the romance thing is worth a shot, I'm going to come down there as soon as possible so we can start it off right, with a lovely dinner...
    Oh yea... new pics will be up soon, maybe this week I'll get some fresh ones of me in my new clothes, I got MAD props on them, word.
    Till then, I love you guys, things are looking alright...