03/17/2001
Alright,
I've decided I ain't gonna sweat shit anymore. So God, go ahead, start
throwing. I'm just going to sit here with my cricket bat, and knock those
bitches across the field, and burn the stumps after I'm done. So suck on
that one oh "omnipotent one" I can get through anything, because there
are several people who love me, and I love all of them.
Becky:
I love you. You know that, but it bears repeating, I'm sorry I don't seem
to tell you anything anymore, but I guess it's just that by the time I
get to talk to you I'm so drained from everything else that it's just hard
to type out the messages. I promise that when we talk it won't be
like that. I'll tell you everything you want to know, and more. I've never
been a great conversationalist, because I just don't really care about
much, but if you get me going on the right thing, I can talk forever. If
you ask me questions, I'll make it a point to make it all clear. When you
hear my voice you'll know that it's typing these damned messages that makes
it so hard for me to talk to you. I love you, knowing that you love me
makes it so that I can get through the hardest days.
Kim:
Sorry I missed your call Friday, I'll try to get a hold of you this Monday
so that we can get together, I really miss you too, and I want to help
you with whatever it is you need right now. I love you, and knowing that
you love me made this week a little brighter, I can't wait to give you
a great big hug, cause I really could use one right now, and I know you
could too.
Lindsay:
I'm sorry we end up fighting on Friday's no matter what happens. I'm under
a shitload of stress from work and shit, but I want you to know, you will
always be my friend, I care a great deal for you, you were the first person
that I admitted to loving in 4 years. (at least to their face... kinda)
and knowing you'll always be there for me is a wonderful comfort.
Marc:
You're not nearly as horrible a bastard as I like to make you out to be.
You're a very good kid with the standard teenage bad tendencies, just like
me and yer brother, so I'll let that slide. I know you won't do anything
bad to my home girl Lin, so keep it cool, and stop selling crack to school
kids.
Sean:
Like I told Kim, everyone needs an anchor, you just have to find the best
one, the one that will always be there and will always feel the same for
you. Simply put, you are it for me. You're the one I turn to when shit
is too high, you're the one I know will always be there to get a pizza,
or to watch wrestling. I know that you'll always be here for me to keep
me from losing my mind, and to prevent me from hurting others. Thanks bro,
I love you.
Jenny:
Talking to you always keeps my concience going. If it weren't for you I'd
be a self serving bastard again. I'm so glad to have you in my life to
keep me from doing something that would really hurt the people I love.
I love ya, thanks for always helping me with the hard stuff.
Kat:
Thanks for being there this last week when I really needed it most. I really
owe you one, hell, I owe you about 9 dozen, so when I eventually get my
hands on you I'll have to take you out to a club or something and find
you a proper guy. I love ya, don't ever change.
Shey-Shey:
You naughty little thing you, trying to corrupt me. It's all good though.
Everyone needs a little evil, it keeps the balance, and makes life intresting.
Thanks for helping me throughout the week, I do love ya, you're a great
person, you're smart, talented, witty, and damned sexy... Did I just say
that? Shit. I'm gonna get it... um yea, thanks for being there. Or something...
Stay away from the pool boy!
Maegen:
Sorry I've acted like such a bitch, but you've acted like a total and complete
fucking bitch to me since September, get off your lazy ass and call me,
or else I'm gonna start doing bad things to your social life... like tell
people that you know me!
Brandon:
I now have permission to hit you, I suggest you stay out of SoPo until
I've calmed down...
Liz:
Thanks for helping me through shit, this is going to come out weird, and
Sean is going to insult me for this later, but what the hell, love ya,
don't change. Hope you had a great time with Ben.
Crystal:
You've done great things for my emotional state, I love ya, spending time
with you has done wonderous things for making me feel better. Don't ever
let anyone tell you that you aren't good enough for something, you are.
Someday you'll have your little Rob Halford... er... Thomas... er... Whatever...
Joe:
My best friend through High School, yer the shit. Can't wait for ICP to
come back so we can go out on the floor again, and this time, I'm rushing
the stage with ya. Call me, bitch. I want to hear from you. I'd say I love
you, but someone would hit me, probably you.
Kirsten:
I'm glad that we can get along now, I am really sorry about being such
a dick to you back in September, I hope that me and you can manage to be
friends, that way at least I can say I got something for busting my ass
to go up to Orono to visit. Thanks for talking to me, and not thinking
me a complete ass.
Sarah:
Thanks for talking to me the other night, what you told me meant a lot,
especially because of how worried Crystal is about you. I'm glad that you
understand what you're putting her through, and are trying to make an effort
to fix your mistakes. It might not mean much to you, but I'm proud of you.
You've made a lot of good decisions, and I'd be lying if I said I didn't
love you in some small way.
Edith:
Yea, that's right, Edith. Despite what she thinks, I do love her. I always
will. She was a wonderful friend, and a great person. She did a lot of
good things for me and my self esteem, and I thank her for them. I'm sorry
that you don't want to be friends, but whatever. I hope that you have a
great time doing whatever it is you're going to write about next. Don't
do anything I would do, because frankly, you don't have the genitalia.
Aimee:
Thanks for signing the guestbook and taking an intrest in my life. My Violent
J poster motioned to me the other night, so though my house is not haunted,
I think my poster is. So you were kinda right. Thanks for being
there for Sean. At least you gave him a few good memories, even if you
had to subject him to ::shudder:: Texas...
I
think that will do it. To anyone I missed, I apologize. I am writing this
rather late. Remember to post all comments/concerns to the guestbook.
Thanks, Good night.