I was a very very bad little boy last night. I made the mistake of writing one of these things in anger, and waiting until today to write more about it on the same subject line. Looking back on it I probably should have, since I wrote the previous rant I'd taken some time to go downstairs and cool off, and relax and what not, came back, got a rather wonderful message (thank you Becky) .
    Liz, when I wrote that, I wasn't angry at you for any of that, it was more just generally being pissed at the situation. I'm extremely sorry, you've been nothing short of a great friend to me and I acted like a complete asshole. I keep trying to warn everyone that it always happens, but they all refuse to believe it until they see it themselves. I'm a total fucking dick. There's no way around that. No matter what, I'll always treat the people that want to help me, and care about me, like shit. Ask Sean, he knows about it entirely too well. Ask Lin, she's had it happen a couple times. Pretty much ask anyone who has deal with me on a regular basis, especially when I end up in moods like this... pretty much anyone who knew me during the first 4 years of high school.
    Sean was my favorite wrestler, he will be missed.
    Yea, so... yea. I'm sorry Liz, I really am. I'm a total fucking asshole. I guess I never really thought about your problems cause you mention them so rarely. I mean I know you're going through shit with Ben and what not (hence the "Fuck military" bit) and I really wish he hadn't made that choice. I also wish this cat would leave me alone.
    Like the rant on Thursday said, I'm a self centered prick. No matter how much I want to help everyone else, I'm always greedy deep down. Sorry folks, I ain't all you build me up to be. I'm not a great guy, I'm just average. About 30% of the time I can appear great, but deep down I'm still a bastard. Sorry for bringing anyone down with me.
    Basically, I want to say anyone I pissed off last night, I'm sorry. I don't deserve forgiveness, I deserve a nice hard kick in the nuts. The line forms to the left, and anyone who wants to participate should message me in the next week. That's right kids, you get one free shot at kicking me in the nuts for 1 week only. Once reserved you spot will be held until June 3rd, 2002 and you can kick me at any time, so long as you give me warning so I can have 911 on the line.
    I apologize profusely for my actions, and my God show no mercy to my soul.