01/02/2001
Happy fucking new year... and fuck you all.

    That's right, fuck every single one of you. Except the following:
 
    Lindsay: Who is always there for me, even if I don't want to hear it.

    Sean: Who is always there for me, ESPECIALLY when I don't want to hear it.

    Kim: Who I absolutely love and want to make sure she lives a long happy life.

    Becky: Who I love more than anything else in this world.

    Edith: Who even though she's cocking something up I really want to have happen, I still enjoy the company of her.

    Liz: Who puts up with my shit.

    Joe: Who keeps fucking off when I need him.

    Marc: Who damned well better not break Lindsay.

    Jenny: Who is always there to put me back on the right path.

    Kat: Who is always there to be totally random.

    Crystal: Who is absolutely adorable and I can't wait to see her when she get's back.

    Sarah: You hit on me for an entire night, that was... intresting.

    Sara: For being an annoying bitch.

    Dan M.: For not pissing me off.

    Kiym: For being perfect.

    Shana: For being herself.

    Heather: For being around.

    Brandon: Who doesn't get a fuck you, he get's a king fucking kong, giant, mega, ass beating FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCK YOU!

    Well there, now that that's out of the way... What's been going on with me? Well let's see... last Friday I take a look at the old schedule to see when I'm working. I see something rather odd... I'm working 3 days this week... that means I'm out two days of work... evidently Fred being vocal about having a problem with a manager means he has an "attitude problem" Well fuck! I guess having $200 knocked off of my paycheck every two weeks for the next month is suuuure gonna help my attitude. Man fuck that. I want a new job. I want to move to Pennsylvania, more on that later.
    I want out of my house, I'm tired of living here. I want to get an apartment somewhere, and have an offer but I don't want to live there cause I want to live with Kim. I really really want to live with Kim... I mean that's part of the problem...
    I want to move to Pennsylvania to be with someone I really want to be with, but no one seems willing to believe it. I really want to be with her, but I want to help Kim. Which is right? I have no idea... I just know that I can't be happy with where I am right now, I just can't deal with being alone anymore.
    And now I just find out that Lin is all depressed and shit cause of something I told her that Kim told me. Great, just what I need, another depressed friend. Lin, I love you, isn't that enough? Of course not. It's just like what we talked about last night... it's never enough.
    Oh yea, special note: Hi Heidi. Hope you feel the need to see me again, if for no more reason than I can tell you how you've made me feel lately. You might find it an intresting blend.
    What the hell is wrong with me? I can never get anything I want, and when I get up and try again I just fall down some more. Someone help me. Go find me a really good looking girl who likes cute sensitive guys who know how to treat a real lady. That or help me move to Pennsylvania. I know! You can convince Joe to get an apartment with me! Yea! That would reek of awesomeness! Awe fuck it. I quit. I'm tired of trying too hard to help people that don't want it, and wanting too much something I can never have. If Jesus saw me like this, he'd be mad at me for throwing shit away for the chance at getting something I've wanted for a while. Screw it. I have 4 days off a week now. I want a girlfriend, anyone intrested? ANYONE? I don't give a shit anymore. So long as I think yer cute and you don't mind just sitting on my couch with me for 4 hours a night, and you should be capable of rubbing my back without getting upset. Please, I really need someone. There are so many potential people who I would love to be with if only they would mention it, seriously, just SAY it. What the hell am I talking about? I don't know. I'm tired...

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