| I feel numb inside, but I know the pain is in there I�m coming to realize that tomorrow you won�t be here I hide it deep within me because I don�t want you to see I cry that it didn�t work, that you can�t be with me I�m going to miss you, but you�ll never know why Like I�ll never know all the reasons I had to say goodbye. I�ll wake up the next day, knowing you�re gone You left because I asked you to, but does that mean I can move on? Today I don�t feel anything, besides my nagging doubt Could we have made it work? Could things have worked out? Am I wrong for walking away so soon? Did you deserve one more try? I�ll wake up the day after that and maybe I�ll cry I thought things would be different this time around I thought that in you I might have finally been found I guess I destroy everything, tear it apart until nothing�s left Why do I do it to myself, knowing tomorrow I�ll be feeling bereft Of the things that I loved about you and what you could provide me: A way to feel calm and a respite from being lonely? I don�t feel like I deserve much from myself As though I can�t just sit and enjoy the hand I�ve been dealt I try and make things harder than they need to be The only thing I can be sure of is that you�re better off without me And in the long run I�m probably better off without you As much as I hate to say it, some parts of me know it�s true. Why didn�t I say goodbye a week ago before things became so ugly? Why didn�t I say goodbye yesterday when I still knew that you loved me? Why didn�t I put an end to this when I knew that we were done? I could have stopped it months ago when things stopped being fun. I�ll just try to remember some of the nice times that we shared, When you held me close and once or twice when I felt that someone really cared. 6pm 3/22/02- 12am 3/27/02 |
| Another one, but never the right one I find myself thinking about you I think about how you make me feel I wonder: where do you get the power to do that? � And I wonder what you look like when you laugh You�re so close to the surface of mind Would your smile make me want to kiss you? � Everything makes me think about you I don�t even know you Tomorrow is just another lonely day � Following the path all the ones before have trampled down Another lonely day Another day � Today was one too I just do what I�m told How do I do it all without anyone else? � But I do it all. Without you. Imagining you I imagine your breath against my ear How can I imagine your touch on my skin? � I pretend you�ll love me You don�t even know me I�m just another stupid girl � Following the path all the ones before have trampled down Another stupid girl Another girl � I woke up yesterday and went through it all. I go through the appropriate motions Do I have to keep doing it? � Every day the redundancy gets a little easier. I want someone to save me from it Will I wake up one day calling out your name? � I need to find comfort to get me through this I don�t even know how I harbor just another ephemeral hope � Following the path all the ones before have trampled down Another ephemeral hope Another hope 5:15-5:45pm, 5/29/02 |