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| magical makeover |
| i like the show, ambush makeover. i love watching someone go from sloppy to put-together. i love to hear the makeover subject say at the start of the show, "it's time i made some changes." i love to see the reactions of loved ones to the 'new' person they see at the end of the show. but more than anything else, i never want to miss the scene when the madeover person gets his/her first look in the mirror after the makeover. fashionistas, stylists, and friends advise against heading to the salon or to that boutique for something �ber-sexy when going through emotional upheavels. people, i beg to disagree. i urge you to follow your instincts. you see --- it's not about vanity. although for a time vanity may be the only thing that can keep you grounded. i know this to be true because i went through a phase like this a few years back. it's not about covering up, although keeping up appearances, especially for the people you love, can be the most important thing so your world (and its overlap with these people's) is not completely shattered into bits, so you would still have something familiar to go back to when the crisis is over, and very importantly, so that you don't hurt people should your pain spill out and over. it's not about putting on a false cover, or trying to be someone you are not. although you have to realize that you have to, at least, try to be that image in your head before you can eventually, gradually and/or actually become that person. it's not about hiding or burying a past. although getting over a painful past is a key to moving on, moving forward, and actually getting somewhere. a makeover can be the most frivolous thing one can do, a most powerful ego or confidence booster. but it can also be a turning point for some people, the visible marker of an emotional/ spiritual milestone. yeah... hell, yeah! i believe in makeovers. i've done it a few times already, and i'd recommend a makeover to anyone. it is not a panacea to depression, low self-esteem, lack of confidence. but it does its share in (re)building the self. wanting to make changes, visible changes at that, shows one's fighting spirit. it's about trying to even the inner turmoil with outer calm or togetherness, summoning courage and saying, "i'm not a victim." it's about re-taking control of your life. it's saying, "i am who i am, and &^%$# you who can't deal with that." a friend was texting, asking when i'd be in davao again. i told her, "di pa tapos ang transformation ko..." it wasn't a joke. pretty soon, before you know it, i'll be out of my retreat: fresh inside and out. see yah! hahahaha ;p 07jul05, 1658h, sjc |