dear lord who lives in me and whom i trust, i guess another chapter of my life finished today. i lost another person to whom i gave so much of myself and everything I could afford to give. there's anger and sadness and so much that i don't understand. most of all, i grieve for the person that i was with him, and for the person whom i believed he was. my friends do not understand why i did the things i did. i offer no excuses, as things happened in my belief that sowing good memories is never a waste. i just pray that one day he will recognize and accept --- without conceit and regret --- what it was that i gave, and that for at least a moment he wanted to share with me something that meant something to him.
heal me, lord. help me accept the things i can't change. allow me to see, soon, that the tears were not for naught. for i am tired, and i wish to be light, again.
5mar02, 2215h, mnl |
