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| I dun wanna bother too much. But I can't. Men are fragile. You cannot imagine how fragile a heart can be. It can pretend to be strong, but it is not as strong as it looks. Doesn't matter how long you have to wait until you know what I am talking about. As I am not intented to write to you, I juz wanna relax it thru the typing. Examination is gone. I will have it until my next semester end. I really love the feeling of semester end. But I dun love the feeling of an end of a relation. I dunno whether this begins within these weeks. I only know that if i dun make a try, I will regret... 16.5.2002 |
| I like hanging around aimlessly in the street. I love the feeling of freedom without control. This can be dangerous, as no self-control will lead to laziness. I am sure I am this type of people, prone to be free, chasing dream. Like a horse in the grass, a storm in the ocean, I can go anywhere I want strenuously, aimlessly..... My family doesn't rule me harshly, but I demand more freedom. I want to live with the one I like, the only one I like... to enjoy the rest of our life... This is naive...yet I am. 17.5.2002 |
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| I know K does not think of me...I can sense it...as she never see my eyes in every conversation. She dare not see me..in case she know I get to know what she is thinking about... But I still love her...we have the only resemblence: the phrase------- LOVE CAN BE WITHOUT REASON... I love her, no matter how she is...I dare not say this can be forever, but at least..I think this love will not be weaken at this stage. The only thing I can do is to act liek normal. She knows I like her very much. But she dunno how to response....no matter she like or dislike.... I dun wanna force her...but i will wait her turn to me. I believe there is a day... 18.5.2002 |
| I was very happy last nite. I went to Tung Chun with Linekar. He is really a mad guy. We went to watch STAR WAR II. Feeling bored before the show, we went to Parken superstore to loiter around...and we bought sth vv special----Salmon and Oyster. Fianlly, we had some drinks and the stuff in the film.....this feeling is juz too great...feel like the life in Canada...I juz love it. How gd if I can share this wonderful moment with other friend~~~ however, no one can be as mad as he is...Linekar, what a man! 19.5.2002 I My mood is not that high tonight, after the night running in the soccer pitch. I am exhausted and unwell...a bit uncomfortable feeling...perhaps i drink a lot last night. Sorry if I have done sth wrong.. I wanna make u happy becoz I like to see ya happy. I am not very rich, and I know you may not like me. I will not beg for others' love, I am juz standing up and say "I like u". Nothing else. I will treat you good, juz as how u treat ar boo. Why? As you said, there is NO REASON. 19.5.2002 II |
| Wake up at 8, vomit...and then sleep again. The next wake up is more comfortable. I think I have recovered a bit. I wanna go out today, but I am afraid I will get worse again. I prefer to stay to do the homepage and the Aquila magazine stuff. I have to do it on schedule. Or else, fish will kill me~~~~ K does not show up...I am waiting for her...i mean online...I wonder why i dun ncall her directly... 20.5.2002 I Cha Kin gave me a HUGE Orange pillow last night, but i juz come to see it now. Quite lovely, thx partner...it seems that we have no much ceonversation, but the friendship amongst us is different from other floor brothers...yet close anyway. Phoned K, talked for a while. Are we still friend? i dunno...then i went running street and put book in her p-hole. She can find happiness for herself...i gave her <<the 100 secrets of Happy people>> Cheer up girl. I will support ya always. 20.5.2002 II |
| Dated Q Tsang to have dinner. The palce is K's favorite restaurent, named Gene, located in CB. I think itz juz okay....not my cup of tea. The atmosphere and decorating is good. The Pumpkin Car table feels romantic. Perhaps K like this sort of feeling...I get to know more abt K after she joined us to hv Hagendaz and cocktail. Obviously, we are ppl from two different worlds. Anyway, itz a fine nite. I decided to go to Stanley with Q n K again nix week. A nice fine nite....haha...perhaps K and I hv sth similar, we luv to hang around with friends. Both of us are fully occupied with frds...Seize time! Enjoy life! 23.5.2002 |
| I am being stupid...focusing on a person may lead your life to a heavy burden...unless the person is considerate about u..or else...one'd better give one's heart more freedom. She likes freedom, I like as well. Juz let us have what we want. Even affection exist, freedom should not be diminished. Stop thinking too much. 28.5.2002 |
| When you are indulged in something, let it be... When you are engaged with someone, go ahead... Never Stop until the day you feel enough. Before all, get to know what you really want.... You wasted time a lot... Investing time in the stock of love...that you dun need it. Since the only one you love is you. 18.11.2002 |