just stop

the screaming

the pain

stop...

 

I tilt my head back and try to hold

my pain

inside

my mouth

i can’t let them know

i won’t spark the fire

but it catches on nothing.

 

why did you give her aspirin. 

why didn’t you take her to the doctor.

why didn’t you call me.

why did you ... why didn’t you.

why why why...

 

screaming.  hurting me.  hurting half of me, and

the other half.  burning...

inside my mouth. 

 

my head falls beneath my body.

dark brown and burgundy walls

my head tilts back towards nothingness and

cockroaches

stroll on by.

 

can’t stop a damn thing when you’re a kid

in pain.  mouth.  head.  things being thrown.

my bed grows huge and shrinks to a dot and grows...

half of me, and the other half...

fighting

and i’m torn in half and the cockroach

 

strolls on by.