Friday night alone again
No one to hear the screams but you
Screams of pain
Screams of anguish
Screams of loneliness
Screams of frustration

Pain from long ago injuries not yet healed
Anguish of life's purpose not yet realized
Loneliness because the small circle is kept tightly closed
Frustration from desires not yet fulfulled... by you or anyone

Screaming alone in the night
Crying "Help Me!" as loud as you can
As loud as a whisper
As loud as a gentle breeze
As loud as a pin drop
As loud as a sigh

Does anyone hear??
Energies? Spirits?? People??? Gods????
~~~~1 April 2005

Latin flame
Passion lost
Passion found
Why with you
Why not him
Forbidden love... lust?
Desires... pure... carnal

Support & smiles freely given
No expectation from either side
Freedom... no pressures
Relaxing... comforting
~~~~17 May 2005

Look in the mirror and what do I see?
Depends upon the day... my mood... the season...
A young girl wanting friends
A woman waiting for love
One still trying to find herself

Searching for the truth ~~ daunting indeed
Tangled is the path seemingly with no rhyme nor reason
Where does the journey end?
When and how to make the first move?
To begin the change? Or stay upon the shelf?
~~~~26 May 2005

Together or apart
Quandaries abound
Desiring his touch... his kiss
Desperately wanting to stay
Yet also wanting to go

Opportunities lay before me
Which path to travel
To stay on the
known path... it is safer
To find adventure with the other... may be treacherous
Or to switch between the two

Traveling both paths would be unfair
For while enjoying one path
Beauty may be missed on the other
Looking at the signpost
Praying for direction
... finding none

Walk a bit of one path
Then go back and try the other
Weighing the known against the unknown
Stay on one path -- the known -- and stay safer
Travel the other -- the unknown -- and risk all

The decision is mine alone
The move must be made
But which way to go
Staring at the signpost
Looking for direction
... and finding none
~~~~10 June 2005

Irresistable, Lust, Chemistry
Attraction, Affection, Desire
What brings us together
Friendship, sure
What keeps us together
Is it love - just pure lust
The desire to be together is clear
But will it survive everything set before it
Other relationships... past and present
Those of romantic in nature
Those of familial in nature
~~~~1 January 2006

Passion can consume us
to the point of breaking.
Passion can abondon us
leaving an empty shell...
able only to survive.
To relight Passion's flame
goals need to be defined
boudries to be relaxed.
Find your Interests and delve
deep to find Passion's root.
~~unknown date

This shouldn't be done
The embers should be left unstirred
I looked into his blue eyes...
The friend from my past standing there
Emotions...
Desires...
Never acted upon then...
Should not be acted upon now...
His hands gently caressed my arms...
back...
legs...
face...
Breathing, both his and mine, became slow...
deep...
uneasy...
One innocent kiss...
It triggered so much...
Pandora's box has been opened...
What do we do now?
~~~~22 January 2006

Masquerade

What masque will you wear today?
Jester or King
Fool or Scholar
Lover or Friend
Bold and Brassy
Shy and Reserved
~~unknown date