song: �Hold Me�, Savage Garden
~Hey
The two of us used to be so close. I�m still not sure what went wrong. We just began to fight all the time. We have both always been very strong willed individuals. At first it was a common bond for us. We were so close. But then we began to butt heads more and more. At first it was over stupid things and we would come to our senses really quickly, but they got more and more serious. We began to simply hurl vicious insults at each other.
~ I might need you to hold me tonight
Sometimes after we fight, he�ll come back to me after going to a club to cool down. He�ll always apologize and say things will be better. I apologize too. We say that we�ll never fight again. I always wanted to believe him. I would push out of my mind that we ever fought and I would just let him hold me and we would go to sleep. This time we fought and he left like always, but this time I hae a feeling he isn�t coming back, at least he�s not coming back to me.
~ Hey
Even worse than the fighting from before, now we aren�t even speaking at all. He�s spending all his time with a mutual friend of ours. Sometimes when I�m alone and the horrible thoughts come to my mind I feel like tearing all my hair out. But I�m just so angry. I bury all my feelings deep inside. The very thing that every shrink in the world will tell you not to do. I know I should let them out, but I found myself unable to even break a lamp. I feel like I�m suffocating under all these hidden feelings.
~ So tell me isn�t happiness
He�s seemed so distant lately. It�s like the money has gone to his head. I know he�s younger and it�s just in his nature to go money crazy. But Jesus! You�d think he hadn�t ever had money is his hands before. He comes back angry when he goes out to bars. I ask him why he doesn�t just stay with me and he says he has things to do. I have tried so many things to drown the way I feel about him; about what we�re going through. My latest kick has been alcohol. It tried tattoos, but they remind me of him. Any kind of pain to get my mind off of him. I�ve tried meaningless relationships, but they don�t satisfy me like he could. My bandmates know I�m not the most religious guy, but lately I�ve been hoping beyond hope and praying that he�ll come back to me.
~ I might need you to hold me tonight
Do you remember not long ago
The two of us used to be the life of the party. We were always the last ones to go back to the hotel after a night on the town. It seems like just yesterday we had the run of the clubs. Now it�s like we�ve totally abandoned our former selves. We�ve become numb to the love we once had for each other. I don�t know about him, but I miss it. The lonely feeling inside. The void that only he can fill. I should be able to have my choice of any girl I want. But I, AJ McLean, have my eyes on only one MAN. My bandmate, and close friend, Nick Carter.
~ Hey
Perhaps it�s true that Nick and I were never meant to be. But I find it so hard o believe. No matter how much I think of others my thoughts return to him. To Nick. All I want is to hold him again.
~ I might need you to hold me tonight |