| March 30, 2002- Last night I had the best nights sleep I've had in a long time. I slept soundly and had a wonderful dream. Now I know what someone out there is thinking right now, and the answer is no, it wasn't about sex or anything like that. I actually don't have hardly any dreams about stuff like that come to think of it...but anyway, my dreams are more fantastical. For as long as I can remember I've loved Spider-Man, and now they're making that new movie that comes out in May and I can't wait to see it. So, I dreamt I was Spider-Man. It was awesome, one of best dreams I can remember. It was so real too, it was like all my senses were involved...almost like real life. Except it wasn't, real life isn't as good as that. Not for me, or at least not in some aspects. Well, mainly the cancer part of it since that's all I have to complain about in life. But when it comes to other things I'd take real life over being Spider-Man any day. True, being Spider-Man would be awesome, but does Spider-Man have the friends that I have? And one things for sure, Spider-Man isn't lucky enough to have someone like Tracy in his life...even though they got Kirsten Dunst (who is still not even half as cool as Tracy, or cute) to play Mary-Jane for the movie, it's still just a movie. I'd take my life over super powers any day. I wouldn't complain about having super powers with my life though, that would make things interesting. Now I've written a whole thing about comic books and super powers...how geeky do I sound. Well, that's enough of that stuff for now. Today I got to go outside for a change. Hopefully the weather will stay nice this time, but with the way Pennsylvania has been so far it'll probably snow tomorrow. I thought weather in Virginia was screwed up, but trust me guys it is far worse up here. But for the moment I'm just happy I was able to do some work outside today. I got to break out my trusty DeWalt for some gardening work. After a trip to Home Depot to get some wood and other supplies I set to work on making a Hot Box for our garden. God it felt great to be working with wood again, I didn't realize how much I had missed it until today. Working on the sets for the plays in high school are some of my greatest memories. Smelling fresh cut wood and using my drill today just brought all of those good memories flooding into my brain. After I was finished it really made me long for a trip home. If my Mom heard me say that she'd be mad, she says that Pennsylvania is our home. Now I know it's her home, but I've never lived here in my life and she knows that. Virginia Beach will always be my home, even if I'm not living there at the time. Maybe I'll live down there someday, but I've still got a long way to go up here at Pitt and I'm sticking it out. Tomorrow is Easter. It was never a really special holiday for me since I'm not much of a candy lover or anything. Religiously it's an extremely important holiday. I know that and respect it, but other than that there's nothing really to look forward to. However if theses were normal circumstances we would be having a lot of the family over for easter dinner, but since my blood counts are at their lowest this weekend cause of my chemo last week we're not having anyone over. It's just to big a risk to take, especially when a cold could be life threatening. I hate that feeling of weakness. To think that something so insignifigant is now having such a huge impact on the way I live my life for the next 4 months. I can't wait for this to end just for that reason. |