| March 23, 2002- Well, it's been over a week since I broke the news to my friend. I figured I wouldn't write in my journal until i heard from her again. She said she needed some time to think things over and stuff. I'm thinking that since it's been over a week that it can't be good. She's either avoiding the the topic or trying to think of a nice way to let me down I guess. Anyway, doesn't look like she'll be talking to me any time soon so since there are some other things happening I started writing again. I had my second chemo yesterday. That's what started me writing tonight. I think I'm doing pretty well with this one too. My stomach has been a little upset the past 2 days but not to the point where I feel I might throw up. i just hope I keep doing this well with all my treatments. My hair finally started to fall out. now my head looks like the coat of a mangy dog. i'm going to have to shave it again if I want to feel secure about going out without a hat. i went to work last week, figured I need to make backall the money I spent, but I got a cold and now Mom doesn't want me going back for a while. At least not until it's warm out and cold and flu season is over. She's right, it's not worht the risk of screwing up my treatment. I just wish my friend would tell me what's on her mind. Good or bad, one way or another. If it were good it wouldn't take her this long to say it so I already know it's bad. Just don't keep me in the dark. |