| June 18, 2002- I got my liver test back and everything is fine. Apparently all the meds I was taking by mouth were just too much for my liver to handle on top of the chemo. I'm getting so excited for my last chemo this friday. But at the same time I'm getting a little scared considering all the complications I had from the last chemo. I mean, first there was how terrible I felt. And then how weak I felt ever since then. I still feel like only half of myself. And on top of all that there was the liver problems. I'm just glad it's going to be over and done with. I'm more than ready to get on with the rest of my life. Definetely ready to get back to my friends at Pitt. The last few days I've been feeling surprisingly happy considering last week. Or at least I'm feeling a lot better about myself as a person. Maybe not happier in certain aspects, but at least I'm happy with myself. Considering my past (Christine and Ashley) I got over this surprisingly quick. I can't even believe I'm over it myself. One thing I'd like to ask everyone that reads my journal. Did I make Tracy out to be a bitch in the last two entries before tonight? I'm just curious because I'd hate to think that I would make her out to be like that to people that have never met her before. I asked one of my friends that has never met her if I made her out to be mean in the last two entries and she said that I just sounded sad, but I never made her out to be mean. If you have any input on the situation email me, you can find my address on the contact page. Or if you're lazy then I'll just put it here as well: [email protected] Oh, and tonight is the last you're ever going to hear about Tracy. I promised I wouldn't mention her in my journal any more, but I had already started writing tonights entry when she made me promise so tonight doesn't count in my mind. But my minds a pretty messed up place so she'll probably be upset about this entry. Oh well. If anything else happens that involves her worth sharing I'll just have to change her name or something. The way I see it this journal is to account my journey through cancer, and the things that happen to me on the road to wellness, whether they have anything to do with cancer or not, affect me and therefore deserve to be shared. So be forewarned everyone that interacts with me...if you affect me in any way you are liable to be written about. Does this count as a disclaimor? |