| April 9, 2002- I had an interesting day. I got in a car wreck. Well, not really a wreck, or at least not a bad one. Some old guy, and by old I mean this guy has gone over the hill twice, rear ended me. There wasn't any damage to either of our cars or anything which was good, and he wasn't hurt. Me on the other hand, I have one hell of a headache. It could be worse, I'm just glad no one was hurt. I had a conversation this evening with a friend about acting. It's been a long time since I've been on stage. To long if you ask me. I miss it a lot. We talked about persueing acting as a career. She actually was really trying to get me to do it. It's not like it isn't something that I've thought about, and at great lengths too. I just have to much doubt in myself as an actor. What are the odds that someone like me could really make it as an actor? I think slim to none, and plus what kind of life would I lead...could I ever have a family? But it is something that I really want to do. It's something I know I enjoy, really it's the only thing I enjoy doing. I'm good at math and I know I could finish up college with high enough grades to get a job working as some kind of cool scientist or something, but I really don't know if I'd enjoy it. I know if I could find work acting I would be happy with my job, but would I be happy with my life? That's the only thing that holds me back. I just wish I knew what I really wanted. And plus with my current health situation it's not like it would be easy to just go out to LA and try to find work. For the next five years of my life I have to get all kinds of tests done regularly to make sure that my cancer doesn't come back, well once it's gone that is. I know I could do acting, I just don't know how. |