| April 29, 2002- Today was a busy day. I had to go get some tests done in Pittsburgh, and I also had some other things to do as well. It ended up being a full day. The tests were pretty boring and I fell asleep for most of them. I couldn't help it, they tell me to lay still and relax myself so that's what I did. I won't find out any of the results for a while, and I'm not to concerned with how things are anyway. Before I was really worried and nervous, but that's not a good way to be so I just let it go. I'll find out one way or another and worrying about it until I find out will just make life more unpleasant for me. In the meantime I plan to enjoy feeling good until my next chemo. After all my tests were done I had to run to the bus stop. I caught a bus from Oakland to the airport. My friend Travis had a lay over there on his way to visit his folks in Washington. I'm really glad I go to see him before he shipped out to London. I still can't believe he's going to be there for a few years. Things are really changing from the way they were, but that's what happens when high school ends. Everyone has to grow up and nothing is ever the same again. I was really looking forward to my trip to Virginia in a few weeks, but now I'm not to sure. Tracy told me this evening when I got home that she probably won't be able to go. Although when I asked her if she wanted to go with me so long ago I was kinda just joking, but when she said yeah it wasn't a joke anymore. I mean I was going down and it would be great if she could come I thought, but I never in my wildest dreams thought she would come. In fact I hadn't even made the plans to go back when I asked her, I just remember thinking "I am going down so why not invite someone for the hell of it". Then when she said she would go I made the plans around going with someone. Now that she may not go I don't even feel like going either. There's really only one person down there I wanted to see, but he's always working and probably not even going to the theatre banquet. I have other friends down there but I wasn't to excited about seeing some people. Really all I wanted to do was go down and spend some time with Tracy and have fun with her. If she doesn't want to go anymore I'm not even sure if I do. I don't know what I want. Oh well, for now all I need to do is get through all my tests this week so they can be over and done with. No use worrying myself over a trip that may not happen. |