| April 17, 2002- Today was a much better day than yesterday. I don't know what was goin on yesterday but I feel more than a hundred percent better. I think I just had a lot of things going on and I needed to release some of what was raging in my mind. Thank God for this journal cuase I don't complain to friends, even though some people say I should. All I know is that after putting down what I was feeling in this journal things didn't seem to bad, and making things seem not bad to a guy with cancer is a wonderful thing. I got a very pleasant gift today from my new friend Laurie. I don't think I've written anything in here about her yet, but she's a really cool person. She's a very special person in Tracy's life, or at least that's how Tracy would put it, and we met through Tracy. She's been a great friend the past few weeks and she's also been full of support and good stuff like that. I'm really glad I got to know her, even though the circumstances of us meeting aren't ideal. Having cancer really stinks at times, but meeting new people is always cool and my cancer has allowed me to meet a lot of new people. I really can't think of anything else to write. I didn't really do anything today. I made a point to just relax as much as possible after my bad day yesterday. At least I can say it worked and I feel so much better physically than I did yesterday. Now the question...do I dare to try and workout tomorrow? I really want to try and get back into shape, especially building my stomach muscles back up to par since my surgery really screwed them up. Plus I really haven't been active enough since I've been home, I need to do something to try and keep myself fit. Let's just hope tomorrow I can do all the things that I'm thinking about doing. Now that I feel better I think I should be able to, but thinking and doing are two different things. |