Chapter 1~ Pain
He drummed his fingers on his chair, expressing openly that he wasn't patient in waiting. He had a frown on his forehead, everyone knew why and didn't say anything. Finally the Doctor imerged from the chamber.....
"Your Majesty....it's...it's....stillborn...again...but it was a boy." The Doctor said.
Everyone watched the King's reaction to this whole scene. All he could do was throw up his hands to express annoyance. His queen hasn't been able to give birth to a living baby. Boy or girl, who cared....but her job was to just 'breed'! And she wasn't doing her job well! This was the third time already, a third time giving birth to a stillborn child. He had married her because he needed an heir, he did not love her. He of course didn't want to do anything with such a vain girl. He had picked her because firstly it helped his kingdom with the alliance, secondly she promised to just do her job because she was miserable in her country. Van felt pity for her and asked for her hand. But now...she wasn't keeping her part of the promise!
"So again right? Well how is the queen." The young King asked...showing little concern...but still some. Everyone had been waiting to hear him say that, it was only proper for him to do so. If he didn't people will say he was brutual and blahblahblah. The Doctor looked up from his bowed posistion.
"To say the truth Majesty....she lost a lot of blood..." The doctor was interuppted by the young King who just said, "Well please get to the point Doctor." "Ah...yes yes...she isn't well....just grieving over her lost baby...or babies....she will have to stay in bed for a month...the shortest....she isn't well is your Majesty's answer." The Doctor said. The young king nodded, he understood. He stood up, with a frustrated sigh walked out of the room, back to his sanctuary from all these people....his parents and brother's grave.
He ran as fast as he could there, once again feeling like a 5 year old, no where to turn, no one to help, no one to love. Thinking of the word, he doesn't know what it means anymore. He remembered....no, that must have not been love. Love would have made her come with him....if she had loved him they will be here side by side right this second. Holding each other....being happy. Again the word happy made little sense, he hadn't been happy for...how many years? Even he doesn't remember. He strained his brain....ah..yes...for 5 god damn years. Never in his life after his departure from the one he thought that loved him.
"Van, you can't run....you know that." The voice belonged to Allen...yeayea...him again...of course he would find me and start lecturing....he decided to find a new hideout....later..that is if he had time to escape Allen's lecture.
"Leave me alone." Van spelled out clearly, this wasn't the time for lectures, he didn't have the patience to listen....then again he was the only one who knows what's going on in his head. "Allen...this isn't the time..." Van was interuppted by a pretty pissed Allen. "Van! You are 21! You must be responsible! Do you know? You must have hurted Queen Mya's feelings alot! She becomes depressed and that may even be the reason of her giving birth to stillborn childs!" Van was shocked, he had expected his bestfriend here to come and console him. Instead he was blaming the stillborn child on HIM!
"I demand you leave my presense!" Van shouted boiling with rage, how dare he! He suddenly realized what he had done. Allen was standing there in shock, Van has never spoken to him like a courtier before. Allen watched as the young king figured out his mistake, he had already forgiven him though. "Allen, I didn't mean that...it's just....just....I CAN'T STOP THINKING ABOUT HER!" You could almost say it was a scream.
Allen was shocked by the outburst. Even after he is married he is still miserable.....five years.....it seems just five mintues ago that they have just departed from the planet called Earth. "You still cannot forget her eh?" Allen asked quietly. "No" was his answer. Five years....so fast...yet so slow...he didn't know how to define it, yes it was painful...that was it painful for the young king. The girl he was once in love with too...yet know thinking of it...it was never love...it was care. Thinking about it, Hitomi was pretty cruel. But in a way he understood why she stayed. One could clearly see that she loved him with all her heart, but then she might just couldn't stand it....it was too much for her...to loose everything....some said the power of love will make one do anything....but in this case...no...it failed.
Allen inspected the King now. He was obvioulsy in pain. His head was bowed, he was obviously fighting back tears.Allen remembered clearly the night five years ago when they arrived back at Ghea without Hitomi.
Flashback
"She must be here, just maybe landed somewhere else." All three of them, Allen, Millerna, and Van were in the forest yelling for Hitomi. It was totally obvious that she did not come, yet Van kept reassuring them that she had.
One and half hour later.......
"Van! Stop it! Stop imagining it! Isn't it obvious? She didn't come? For some reason your power of love wasn't strong enough to bring her here with you!" Allen shouted, irratated yet melancholy in some way.
"Shut up! That cannot be true! The other night she told me she loved me!....she said....we had a moment! She said she loved me too!" Van shouted, frustrated. Allen shook his head sadly while Millerna went over and embraced the teary eyed Van. "It's okay...it's okay..." Millerna said over and over again, trying her best to console the now...sorta hysteric young king. Millerna was startled when Van's head suddenly lifted up from her shoulders, "NO, I was wrong. It was I who only said I love her...she didn't say that. I just assumed it...." Van said crying. He had never felt such loss, he was determined to get over it and that there were many other women in whole Ghea to choose from.
End of Flashback
"I failed Allen, I failed to get over her! I CANNOT!" Van shouted. He sat on the flat rock by his family's grave, finally he said, "I know I was wrong Allen. I'll go see Mya now...." Allen watched as Van stood up. He eyed the young king, yes, he has grown, past these years grown with pain. It was so hard to see his bestfriend this way. His muscles showed handsomely, his hair was as ever the busy black bush, and his face was handsome, yet those eyes carries a lonliness, empitiness, he dare not look into those eyes any longer. There was only one person who could return warmth in those eyes and it was the girl on the Mystic Moon....Hitomi.
