so you could feel all the pain I felt
I wish you could spend the night as me
So you could feel one of my teary sleepless nights
as i re-live the memories of the pain you made me feel
silently crying, tossing and turning
I want u to understand my reactions, my reasons,
realise the extent of pain that i feel in my heart and my mind
even your name is reminder, it sends memories flooding back
the picture of you in my mind tears ny heart in two
maybe I would hurt less if I knew why,
what i'd done to deserve it?
I just want you to spend one night as me
and feel the pain I felt
maybe then you'd understand.
You never wanted me
I'd be as sweet and understanding as possible
Listen to you and talk to you
Understanding your need to know someone
So I got to know you
But i'm still not quite there
A glimmer of hope when you kissed me
But it meant nothing to you
A mistake made under the influence
Thats all I was
Then you kissed me again
In a normal state of mind
But then you still say i'm not what u want
Can you not see i'm just waiting for you to want me?
I don't want you to be forever a dream
Can you not see how perfect I think you are?
I don't just want to love anyone,
I want to love you.
I realise I've been awake all night
Thinking over my thoughts and fears
Silently crying and wiping my tears
Shining after the sun has come up
What would you see in the reflection?
Love, hate, sadness, happiness?
All mixed together like the reflection of a rainbow
glistening in the water