Disclaimer: I own absolutely no part of the characters from Buffy: The Vampire Slayer (I wish I did but…) the songs are Britney Spears: I’m A Slave 4 U, Overprotected and I’m not A Girl Not Yet A Woman
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Summary: A little bit of angst here, this is just what I think Dawn is feeling.
Author Notes: Yes there are parts of me that can write something other than sweet and happy Buffy/Angel fluff. This doesn’t have an exact place it is just sometime in the 2nd half of Season 6.
It’s like I don’t exist. First they do their best to suffocate me and now they can’t even be bothered with me. I just want to be included. I know I didn’t really exist and go through all this stuff with them but I can remember it and I feel like I did. I just want to be normal. I wish we were all still the happy family we were in LA. Maybe things would be different if we were. They think because I’m younger I can just be classed as stupid and immature. If I was a normal 15-year-old maybe I could understand that attitude but as it is I’m older than they are, seen more things than they have even if I can’t remember it. I have been through so much for someone of my age and that’s not including all the supernatural things. My world is ruled by death and divorce and yet they still try to keep me in the dark to protect me. I don’t need protecting. What is there left for me to experience that I need protecting from? The scariest thing in the world is loneliness and they are forever pushing me towards that. People say that being alone is such an awful thing, they all hate it and yet they are always subjecting me to it. Sometimes the loneliest place is when you’re surrounded by people. Even when I’m at the magic shop with them all they still don’t include me. If something important happens I always have to go fetch something or do something. I feel so over-protected. They refuse to see me as I am you just see a small child that needs to be hidden from the world.
I know
I may be young, but I've got feelings too.
And I need to do what I feel like doing.
So let me go and just listen.
All you people look at me like I'm a little girl.
Well did you ever think it be okay for me to step into this world.
I know that I can’t
possibly understand what it’s like to be Buffy, to be the slayer and to run a
house while saving the world, or Xander and Anya who have to do things for
themselves without parents helping you. To have to hold down a job but they
don’t listen to me. They don’t see that I can do some things for myself that
I’m not stupid and small. That I can handle myself when it comes down to it.
When they were my age they were all fighting vampires and yet they still feel
that I need to be protected and saved and not allowed to see the world we live
in. They slate the people of this town for not acknowledging what is really going
on but I’m trying and they’re telling me to back to a bubblegum world where
everything is perfect.
Say
hello to the girl that I am!
You're gonna have to see through my perspective
I need to make mistakes just to learn who I am
And I don't wanna be so damn protected
There must be another way
Cause I believe in taking chances
I just want them to see me for me. To see me as an equal cos when it comes down to it that’s what I am. They matured fast too and yet they refuse to see it. I need to show them respect and yet they show me none. I have to stand to attention when they want something but the minute I make a simple request for a little freedom and a little more chance to show I’m responsible they pretend like they can’t hear me. Buffy was always complaining that teachers and family treat her like a child when she was m age and that she wasn’t a child she could deal with the harsh reality and that she deserved more respect and yet when it comes down to it she can’t even remember her own promises. Like the promise to never become one of those people. She is a total hypocrite.
What
am I to do with my life
(You will find out don't worry)
How Am I supposed to know what's right?
(You just got to do it your way)
I can't help the way I feel
But my life has been so overprotected
I tell
'em what I like
What I want
What I don't
But every time I do I stand corrected
They want me to be
what they like, what suits them but I can’t conform to their needs anymore. I’m
not a child and yet to them I am. I understand that I am the weirdest stage in
anyone’s life the transition from childhood to adulthood, but let’s face it
I’ve never really been a child to begin with. Because of everything that’s
happened in my life I missed everything and not just because I was put on this
world at the age of 14 but because I was the Slayer’s sister.
I
don't need nobody
Tellin me just what I wanna
What I what what I'm gonna
Do about my destiny
I Say No, No
Nobody tell me just what what what I wanna do, do
I'm so fed up with people telling me to be
Someone else but me
I just need them to
see and understand that…they say that because I did something as immature as
stealing I’m just proving their point but at least by stealing I proved mine
too. They can’t make me into their design. I’m not a robot that can be told
what to think or feel. I’m a person.
I'm
not a girl
There is no need to protect me
Its time that I
Learn to face up to this on my own
I've seen so much more than you know now
So don't tell me to shut my eyes
I'm not a girl
Not yet a woman
All I need is time
A moment that is mine
While I'm in between