Summary: After an accident Glorfindel is forced to recall his past. Will he ever be able to enjoy the bliss of love?
Author's Note: The Title of the story, as well as the legend Erestor tells his pupils is taken from �The Symposium� by the Greek philosopher Plato (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Symposium_ (Plato_dialogue) wonderfully brought to vision in Stephen Trask�s queer musical �Hedwig and the Angry Inch�. C.3.3 has been the prison number of Oscar Wilde.
Dedicated to all the Children of the Sun and the Earth, who had and still have to suffer from persecution and discrimination.
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His heart humming with joy
Erestor quickly made his way to the clear rivulet. Finally, finally
he would be allowed to show his golden warrior just how much he loved
him. A whole week of solitude Lord Elrond had granted them; even permitting
them access to his own place of repose after the Balrog Slayer at the
very last had been able to overcome his numbing reluctance and fear.
Reluctance and fear wrought upon him by soul searing terrors of the
past.�
After arriving in the secluded
glade the advisor had volunteered to get some buckets of fresh water
while Glorfindel was about to tend to the fireside in the comfortable
wooden hut. His mind still filled with all the pleasures he wanted to
inflict upon his lover Erestor never noticed the triangular head dashing
towards him from the waterside. He never heard the angry hiss, never
felt the sharp teeth break through the skin of his arm, never even noticed
his own strangled cry as an icy hand squeezed his heart in a constricting
grip and the world faded in front of his eyes.�
Glorfindel was just about to
kindle the fire when his world was shattered by an almost inaudible
scream, more to be felt deep inside his soul than heard with his ears.�
His mind nearly torn asunder with terror he rushed out of the cottage
only to see his lover�s limp form drop to earth in a lifeless heap. �
�No, oh sweet Valar, no,
not him, not again! Why, why are you so cruel, taking everyone I dare
to love?��
He didn�t know if he cried
out aloud or if only his soul screamed in agony as he fell to his knees
beside the unmoving body. Almost instantly he noticed the two angry
red points gleaming like evil eyes in the swollen arm. Tears streamed
out of his eyes, blurring his vision as with almost numb fingers he
reached out to feel for his lover�s pulse. After an eternity of a
moment in which his own heartbeat threatened to cease he felt the imperceptible
pulsating under his fingertips, slow faint and unsteady, but undeniably
the drumbeat of life. �
No time now for tears, no time
for a blurred vision. Maybe, just maybe there was a chance, maybe not
everything was lost. Keep the venom from flooding the whole body; drag
it out, drag it out. Steady now hands, nimble now fingers. The warrior�s
hands worked of their own volition, binding, cutting, not too deep,
oh Valar, not too deep, but deep enough, while his soul went out in
search for the fleeting self of his beloved.�
Pain, excruciating pain, pain
and emptiness and coldness, deep bone chilling frost; slowly Erestor
opened his eyes and saw � nothing. Gray it was, gray, misty and oh
so cold and there was throbbing ache surging through his whole being.
Desperately the advisor tried to look around to get at least an idea
of his whereabouts. Gray nothingness as far as he could see, a plain
filled with frosty mist and not one single point to rest his eyes upon,
to get even a minimum sense of direction. �
But there, fare in the distance,
wasn�t there a light, blinking in warm welcome, beckoning to him.
He�d find shelter, would be save, if he only could manage to get there.
Slowly dragging his feet through the syrupy molasses of the mist Erestor
started to move, fiery knives cutting through his body with every step.
After an infinity of walking the mist seemed to diminish, the flaring
pain to lessen and his movements quickened to an almost normal pace
as the faint glimmer steadily grew into a shining doorway, opened in
welcome for him, promising the peaceful safety of forgetfulness. Just
some more steps and he would finally be able to grant his painstricken
self it�s much needed rest.�
All of a sudden something caused
the dark haired elf to cease his stumbling progress. A whisper, almost
inaudible like the gentle breeze of air in the first promise of spring
softly traced his awareness. But from the wrong direction it derived,
not from the gleaming entry from where a phrase of greeting would be
expected, but out of the nothingness of the empty plain it grew, calling
out through the mist to gain his attention. And in this it succeeded.
Erestor strained his hearing, desperate to get the meaning of the indistinct
words putting all of his willpower in it as if his life would be dependent
on the vague murmuring. His life � dependent � life��
�Erestor, beloved, come back
to me! By the force of my life I beg you, come back! By the power of
our shared love I beg you, come back! Don�t leave me in despair; don�t
make me have to follow you. By the power of love I beseech you, come
back to me, come back!��
Erestor�s whole being swayed
under the encumbrance of decision. Something deep within him recognized
the words, recognized the voice. Something deep within him remembered.
But still there was the door of light invitingly opened for him beckoning
to him with his promise of final peace. No more pain, no more sorrows,
no more the heavy burden of duty weighting down his shoulders; only
sweet oblivion and peaceful rest. No more � life? � hope?, no more
� love?�
Sobbing with the effort of
dragging his feet through the quicksand of already thickening fog Erestor
cast one last longing glance at the alluring entrance to quietude as
he turned around and crawled at a steady pace back towards pain, towards
life, towards love.�
His face drowned in tears,
in equal measure caused by anguish and by relief, Glorfindel listened
to the shallow gusts of breath emerging from his beloved�s breast.�
.Everything that could be done he�d done and now that his lover was
laid securely on the comfortable bed, at the very last reconnected with
his soul, time had come to let the anguish wash over him, time to let
his tears flow, mourning what should have been. This was so wrong, everything
was so very wrong, nothing like it ought to be. The still figure on
the vast bed, the bed that should have been the witness of the final
consumption of their love, not of their struggle against demise, should
be smiling at him, eyes bright with passion and love. �
Was it true then that he was
cursed by the Valar, cursed to be a menace to everyone he dared to love?
Was it true that he was an abomination, despised by the Valar themselves,
like he�d been told thousands of times in a life he had thought to
be a thing of the past. But no, it couldn�t be true for Erestor, sweet
Erestor loved him back, he�d even been able to unban him from the
grip of death calling upon the power of their love, ought this not to
be proof enough of the rightness of� their shared affection? �
The ghost of a smile shining
through is tears the blonde warrior let his gaze wander fondly over
his lover. A gush of relief bloomed in his heart when he found the breathing
less labored and the heartbeat drumming stronger and less uneven under
his searching fingers. Now his weeping was almost purely out of joy,
for his Erestor would live. Erestor the wise adviser who had finally
been able to tell him a proper name for the likes of him. As �Children
of the Sun� he had spoken of males longing to share themselves with
other males and that there was neither shame nor blame in anything concerning
true love. �Children of the Sun� after an old legend, a legend rumored
to be from the beginning of time, but nevertheless unheard of in ancient
Gondolin whose inhabitants only had terms of loathing and disgrace thrown
at him in hatred revulsion.�
Ah Gondolin, memories he desperately
had tried to suppress floated to his mind with torturing clarity, memories
stirred up from the deepest vaults of his consciousness by the one thing
he couldn�t bring himself to accomplish when he treated his beloved�s
wounds. Only for the instant of a moment he�d thought about it and
it even wasn�t recommended anymore but this tiny shard of a second
when he had considered burning the snake�s venom out of his lover�s
body with red hot iron had brought back the whole unwanted load of tantalizing
remembrance, the stench of scorched flesh still too rancid in his nostrils
and the agonizing screams still too loud in his ears even after uncountable
centuries of two lifespans. Painstricken face buried deep in his hands
Glorfindel�s body shook in sobbing seizures as nightmarish wraiths
of times long bygone hunted through is mind�
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His breast swelled with pride the young Lord of the Golden Flower listened to the ardent speech with which
King Turgon welcomed the young warriors into his service. With trembling lips he swore his oath to protect the sacred ways of the Valar, the inviolability of the family and the safety of fair Gondolin, if need be, even with his life. With deep conviction he swore to keep himself clean from all aberrations, be they of the body or of the mind and to be a warrior at whom people would look up with love and respect, never to do aught that would disgrace the Hidden City for now and all time to come. Little did he know then at what costs these words would come to him, little did he know how the flow of his life would be twisted and sundered as if cursed by the Valar themselves. And a curse it was, at least by the way king Turgon�s steadfast hand led his people�s thinking and motivation.
It wasn�t quite long after
this fateful oath that Glorfindel noticed that something was direly
amiss. He listened to his comrades� banter, heard them bragging over
their encounters with maidens, innocent how they might be, how a fair
elleth had looked and smiled at them, how she had talked, how sweet
the curve of her cheek was rounded and how the sun played in her hair.
To all this he listened, never taking part in the conversation. For
Glorfindel really liked ellith, liked them as good and trustful friends,
but never had he felt anything for them beyond mere friendship. Never
had any of them caused his heartbeat to quicken or his cheeks to flush,
nor had he felt any other reaction of his body. Surly something was
terribly, terribly wrong with him.�
The dread of wrongness increased
to horrendous certainty when he first felt the quickening of his heart
while in the common bath with his fellows after a training session.
The way the water glinted on their muscular bodies, the way they chased
one another good naturedly without any dissolute thoughts, droplets
of water streaming from their wet hairs over broad shoulders and backs
down narrow�..NOOO. Aghast with himself, with his fiercely pounding
heart the young warrior immerged deep into the water desperately trying
to hide the shameful betrayal of his flesh. Frantically he prayed to
the Valar for this to be a one-time aberration, for it never to happen
again and for his life to be ordinary like everyone else�s.�
Only when the bathing chambers
were empty for a long time did he dare to come out of the water, convinced
that every single one would notice the appealing state of his body.
Still trusting deep in his heart that the Valar had listened to his
prayer and everything would be mended on the morrow he reached his chambers
and at once fell in an exhausted sleep.�
But the Valar had chosen to
be deaf or, out of a strange and incomprehensible sense of humor only
Valar are capable of, they wanted to condemn the young lord, who had
done nothing at all to evoke their wrath, to an existence in misery
and shame. For in this very same night all the images Glorfindel had
so bravely banned from his mind kept creeping back into his dreams.
All those gorgeous bodies, gleaming skin, broad shoulders, narrow waists
and rounded buttocks, bodies moving with exquisite grace while rivulets
of water slowly run down onto the most hidden and most unspeakable places,
no elf was allowed to even think of if they were not his own, danced
through his nightly visions in a most sensual ballet.�
With a strangled cry the goldenhaired
warrior awoke, his feet dangled in soiled sheets, hot stickiness still
drying on his belly. A deep sense of loss overcame his mind as his mouth
wailed out his despair in heart wrenching sobs. There was no chance
left to turn away from the outrageous truth. He was an abomination,
a disgrace to the Hidden City, a traitor to all the things Gondolin
held sacred, some filth even the Valar looked upon with revulsion, he
had become everything he had sworn a holy oath to protect his city from
and he knew what his punishment would be if his monstrosity ever happened
to be found out.�
From then on Glorfindel shied
away from all kinds of societal relations, leading his life hidden in
segregation. He worked hard on the training fields, obstinate to drive
his body to an almost permanent state of over-exhaustion, thus rendering
it unable to reveal any kind of unsolicited reactions. He took to the
baths only when all his comrades had left, never indulging in their
conjointly dealings. Whenever it wasn�t possible for him to skip the
common meals he never dared to lift his eyes from his plate, fearful
that his gaze would linger on a beautiful face or some luscious lips,
giving away his hideous secret. He even ceased his innocuous friendships
with the ellith, convinced that they instinctively would recognize his
� otherness.�
Thus putting all his strength
into his chosen profession Glorfindel quickly made himself renown as
one of the most bold and respectable warriors. With time he even got
along with the dread of being on patrol, keeping strictly to his orders
and never admitting himself into camaraderie more than required by duty.
No wonder it was that in almost no time he climbed up the ladder of
ranks, his secluded life only adding to his honorable reputation. The
people of Gondolin felt save knowing themselves protected by a warrior
as fierce as the Lord of the Golden Flower, little did they know that
the one thing he wanted to protect them from at the most was his own
damnable self. Centuries went on like this and all seemed to be in quiet
prosper for the Golden one, until -. �
For quite some time Glorfindel
didn�t even notice the young warrior who had started to train under
his command. Just another handsome face, another gorgeous body to ignore,
another set of stunning eyes gazing at him in awestruck admiration.
He was used to this by now, used to see them as what they were, new
recruits he had to train into strong warriors. It had worked well for
him, worked well for centuries on end and he surly wasn�t about to
alter anything about it. As Second in Command of the King�s Personal
Guard he was highly respected and had even gained the trust and confidence
of king Turgon himself. �
So it wasn�t until some month
that he noticed that the light in the eyes of a certain young one had
started to fade, that his face had paled into an expression of self-hatred
repulsion. Only when their eyes met by utter chance a sudden flash of
� something enlightened the dull eyes, a sudden sparkle at once suppressed
by a look of hunted mortification. A sequence of symptoms Glorfindel
only knew all too well. Could it be that he wasn�t the only one suffering
under the curse of the Valar? Could there really be another one? He
started to watch more closely over young D�nen. The way he kept to
himself, the way he avoided his comrades, there was no doubt, the young
elf was fighting the same demons as he himself and the Golden Warrior�s
heart reached out to his forlorn trainee. He desperately longed for
contact with the young one, to offer him the guidance and understanding
he so direly would have needed at the time of his own struggle. Only
the purest and most honorable motives were on Glorfindel�s mind, not
even a single thought of depravity crossing his mind, when he slowly
approached D�nen to take him under his own personal tutelage.�
No one seemed to question
that the Second of the Guard took the promising young recruit under
his personal wing, sparring with him after the official training sessions
and discussing matters of warfare and strategy, and soon friendship
blossomed between the two of them. It didn�t take long for Glorfindel
to invite his friend to his quarters one day after training, thus starting
a routine of evenings spent with idle conversation and the sharing of
deep thoughts. �
But he never dared to approach
the matter why he had sought out D�nen at the first place, never dared
to mention anything that couldn�t have been spoken of even at the
most crowded marketplace. With time Glorfindel felt the first tendrils
of closeness warm his lonely heart, a comfort he hadn�t known for
himself since the long passed days of his childhood. A painful comfort
for the light in D�nen�s eyes shone brighter than ever in his presence
and the Golden One had to try hard to fight back the traps of unclean
longing, a longing he never would give in to, never wanting anything
else than to spare his young friend from a life of miserable solitude.�
However even if they both managed to keep a strong hold on their mutual
desires, never even voicing them, never daring to overstep their borders,
their souls had recognized one another as what they truly were.�
Then one evening when they
sat in their usual conservation they both happened to reach out for
the bottle of wine and their fingers touched on the cool glass. A red-hot
sparkle flashed between their joined digits and surged fiery through
their whole bodies. Bristling energy seemed to float the room making
them shiver with the intensity of it. Glorfindel looked up, startled,
and found himself lost in the depths of ocean-blue eyes. Unable to avoid
his gaze he swallowed, still trying to restrain his flaming desire,
even as his unruly hand reached out to trace over silky strands of corn-colored
hair to the soft skin of a blushed cheek. D�nen couldn�t stifle the
moan emerging his throat when he felt soft fingers ghosting over his
skin in fulfillment of his most secret dreams. The needful sound proofed
to be Glorfindel�s undoing. With an almost feral groan he lunged himself
onto his � lover? -� capturing his lips with his own. With desperate
ardor the young elf answered the kiss, their tongues dancing around
one another, hands gripping shoulders and waists, hanging on for dear
life and their bodies rubbed together, desperate for contact even through
layers of cloth. Hard groin pressed against hard groin in ever-increasing
frenzy as the tension of their bodies became sheer unbearable until
they both stiffened at the same time, crying out their combined release
in one voice.�
Shaking with the intensity
of their climax they still clung together when the monstrosity of their
doing hit them. With a horrified cry Glorfindel tore himself free, racing
to the farthest corner of the room his soul torn asunder with shame
over his weakness. Never, never ever should this have happened and never
ever would he allow it to happen again. All he wanted was to hide away
in a dark place, hide from himself and his abnormity, hide away and
give himself over to a death of� self-hatred humiliation. �
The heartbroken sobs from his
lover brought the mighty warrior back to painful reality. No time now
to hide away in shame, no time for the comfort of death, in no way could
he leave the young one like this, it had been his fault, his own damnable
weakness having brought this menace over them and he would take on to
the responsibility. On shaking legs he crossed the room back to the
devastated young elf burring his panic-stricken� face on his breast
in a tender embrace. Bitter tears streamed down from both of their eyes
mingling their wetness on their skin. With a broken voice the Golden
Warrior murmured soothing endearments into his lover�s ears, words
of love and devotion, words of safety, which rung wrong in his ears
even as they escaped his trembling lips. Crying they whispered of the
horrendous sin they both had committed, promising one another to never
let such an ignominy pass between them ever again. However even as vows
of chastity emitted their mouth hands again started to roam lovingly
over shoulders and backs, even as the last murmured words still reverberated
in their ears their lips searched out for one another in tender kisses
and deep in their hearts they recognized with painful awareness that
they were lost, utterly and completely lost and never ever would be
able to keep apart.�
Thus a new life begun for the
Lord of the Golden Flower, a life of stealth and hidden shame. They
did well in the light of day, D�nen and he, did well under the scrutinizing
eyes of Gondolin, never acting other than expected from warriors, never
giving away their hideous secret. The inhabitants of the Hidden City
looked fondly at their formerly� solitary protector who finally
seemed to have opened up to friendship and at the young warrior, thriving
under his mentorship. �
Only in the security of Glorfindel�s
quarters did they allow passion to overtake their minds. Evening after
evening the rooms were filled with the sweet sounds of kisses, tender
and ardent at the same time, filled with passionate moans and murmured
endearments, time and again mingled with a hoarse shout of blissful
relief. But never they went beyond kisses and touches, freely placed
on every inch of exposed skin, never they dared to take the last, the
most despicable step. With time they settled into a sort of routine,
respectable and dutiful warriors at day and passionate lovers at night
and slowly they started to belief that they could be able to life on
like this forever.�
It was one of the last of D�nen�s
days as a recruit when he finally got his decree of promotion. He was
ordered into the King�s Personal Guard, would serve directly under
Glorfindel�s command.� Surely his lover had pulled some strings
to make this possible for him, to enable them to share more time together.
Almost out of his head with joy the young elf went in search for his
mentor, almost jumping at him when he finally found him, touching his
lips in a thankful kiss. A little peck but with all the love and devotion
flowing into the short contact. Only when he felt the warrior stiffen
in panic did D�nen realize what he had done. He had kissed his lover
here in open daylight in front of all people, for everyone plain to
see.� With a scream of utter terror he turned round fleeing the
training-fields in absolute devastation, thus making things even worse
than they had already been. Still in a daze of shock Glorfindel watched
the hastily retreating figure and, his heart heavy with foreboding dread,
he dragged his feet towards his rooms.�
In the dark of the night they
came for him, three of his subordinates, all of them averting their
gazes as they escorted him through the sparely lit streets. In the courtroom
he finally met D�nen again, signs of painful interrogation clearly
visible on his marred skin With pleading eyes, wide with agony and terror
the young warrior looked at the one elf he loved more than his life,
the one upon whom with his foolish imprudence he had brought misery
and damnation, beseeching him for forgiveness and maybe just one reassuring
smile. But Glorfindel was unable to react. Petrified to the very core
of his heart by the heartbreaking state he found his lover in he was
unable to meet the pleading gaze, unable to tear his eyes away from
the angry marks besmirching the adorable body. Biting back a wretched
sob he desperately tried to fight back his tears, tears he would never
allow any of his comrades to see. Still deep in shock he reacted on
pure instinct, an instinct developed to perfection due to many years
of self-hatred loneliness, hiding his distraught soul under the unyielding
demeanor of the dependable warrior.�
Soon after the first words
were spoken it became clear to the Golden Warrior that the whole tribunal
was going to be a farce. He had been brought to court only as a witness,
never meant to be accused and D�nen was to be left the whole blame.
The blame of having seduced� his unsuspecting mentor to his abominable
ways, of having betrayed his trust by enticing him to commit the most
horrendous transgressions. The mendacity and collusiveness of the whole
inquiry shook Glorfindel out of his� horror-struck stupor. In fierce
despair he tried to set things right, tried to explain his own flawed
weakness, tried to plead his own guilt, his own and his alone. But in
vain, every word from his mouth was twisted in its meaning by the auditors;
everything he said was used solely to enhance D�nen�s crime.�
Not a single trace of suspect was allowed to blemish the reputation
of the Lord of the Golden Flower, the most respected warrior in Gondolin.
No way the Second in Command of the Royal Guard could be openly involved
in scandal. �
Without any heed to Glorfindel�s
unwavering explanations of his own failures, D�nen alone was found
guilty. He was sentenced to hard labor in the mitril-mines in the slopes
of a faraway mountain, a sentence equaling certain death for no elf
had ever survived more than just some month in the cold darkness of
the mines. But before he was to be sent away the young elf was to be
branded with hot iron, thus making his misdemeanor plainly discernible
for all to see. �
But even being only a witness
the Golden Warrior was condemned as well. Condemned to watch the punishment
of his lover, condemned to smell the stench of his scorched flesh, condemned
to hear the young elf�s agonizing screams, condemned to see the almost
unconscious body being dragged away by unfeeling guards. His inner turmoil
hidden behind a mask of stone he watched and his heart turned to stone
in this night of unbearable grief.�
The next day Glorfindel was
ordered to join the Border Guard, still keeping his rank as Second in
Command. King Turgon managed to let it look like a personal sacrifice,
keeping his most powerful warrior not for his own safety but putting
the protection of his whole realm and all its inhabitants into his reliable
hands. But Glorfindel knew that this was meant to penalize him, that
the king would never allow an abomination like him to stay in his proximity.
He was also well aware of the observant eyes secretly watching over
his every step.�
Again the Lord of the Golden
Flower took to his seclusive life, even more withdrawn than ever before,
clinging strictly to his orders and duties.� Soon he gained the
repute of a cold and heartless warrior, cold and heartless but brave
and� fierce beyond any measure for he no longer cared for his life
having lost any fear of death for once and ever.�
Only in the dark of the night,
in the seclusion of his rooms did the Golden Warrior allow himself to
mourn his bygone lover. For the lonesomeness was bitter now that he
had tasted the sweet tang of the closeness of another�s body and soul.
Night after night he cried himself to sleep, tears unworthy of someone
of his position, as time and again his memory forced him to relive the
nightmares of D�nen�s fate. And again centuries passed.�
For quite some time Glorfindel
managed to simply ignore the constant approaches of one of his young
warriors. Every time an errant was to be run, every time a voluntary
was needed for what-ever, Himilin was at his side, eyes sparkling with
life and lips curled in an unceasing smile. For quite some time Glorfindel
managed to pay no heed although the mindful attentiveness of his subaltern
heavily tore at the edges of his awareness. Only when he noticed his
instructions to be carried out with more enthusiasm than required by
duty, only when little gifts of advertence, a morsel of his favorite
food here, a unasked for polished pair of boots there, always accompanied
by Himilin�s smiling face somewhere in the near background, his steadfast
resolve started to crumble. Imperceptible� at first but at an ever
increasing momentum his demeanor softened against his youthful follower
and at a snakes pace a faint shimmer of hope started to sneak back into
the Golden One�s heart. Hope that instantly was tarnished by the most
dreadful trepidation.�
Vowing to stay unwavering the
Lord of the Golden Flower still accomplished to push back Himilin�s
increasing advances for several weeks. But the young elf proofed to
be steadfast in the pursuit of his purpose and finally Glorfindel found
himself unable to resist any longer. Cringing inwardly with anguish
he invited his stubborn devotee for a silent walk in the evening to
discuss matters in private and set things right between them. Never
did he intend to do anything than talk, anything than to make Himilin
cease his unwanted affection, but when he felt the energy radiating
from the lithe body besides him, when he looked into deep blue eyes
shining with love and adoration his heart skipped a beat and his whole
resilience faltered. For those were D�nen�s eyes looking longingly
at him , D�nen�s mouth smiling at him in a alluring way like he�d
never done before. Almost sobbing with restraint emotions he drew his
arms around the unresisting body, touching the luscious lips in a tender
kiss. After only a slight but promising respond to the kiss Himilin
broke free of the embrace� heading home in an unhasty pace and
Glorfindel never noticed the triumphant smile on the young warrior�s
lips.�
This time they came for him
in broad daylight, dragging him through the crowded streets of Gondolin
for everyone to see in his shame. Rumors the monstrosity of his misdeed
had already been spread� through the city, thus the walk to the
courtyard turned out to be a gauntlet with people throwing stones, dirt
and garbage at him, spitting on him and calling him the most horrendous
names. �
This time Glorfindel was shown
no consideration for his reputation and rank. No mercy for a recidivist,
the sentence spoken almost before the trial had properly started. This
was naught the Golden Warrior hadn�t expected but what came to him
as a complete bolt from the blue was Himilin�s accusation. With tearful
eyes the young warrior told the court in what despicable ways his superior
had tried to seduce him into joining him in his fornications, just like
he�d done with his uncle D�nen. Frozen to the very bones with shock
by the betrayal from his assumed friend Glorfindel could do nothing
to gainsay the perfidious indictment, knowing deep in his soul that
he was doomed, unimportant whether he tried anything to justify himself.
Thus without any other hearing the verdict was spoken. When the first
light of the sun were to touch Gondolin on the morrow he was to be branded
with red-hot iron and when the sun rose over the mountains he would
be exiled to the mines never to see Gondolin again.� Still in a
stunned daze they took him to the damp dungeon, taking away every single
of his insignia before stripping him off his fine attire and left him
with only the rough grey garb of the convicts, his prison number C.3.3
the only adornment he would be allowed for the rest of his life.� �
In the trancelike state of
unnatural calm the lord of the Golden Flower sat in his unlit cell awaiting
the execution of his punishment with the dull hopelessness of cattle
brought to the slaughterhouse. When he heard the screeching noise of
a key opening the heavy door he stood in expectance of his escort. However,
he was only brought a last slice of Gondolin bread and a last cup of
Gondolin water. At the very moment he reached out for his meager meal
the silence of the night was shattered by the uproar of chaos. Bells
of alarm thundered their warning through the nightly air, feet were
running, hands reaching for weapons, people screaming in panic and the
horrified weeping of children � Gondolin was under attack.�
Turning on their heels the
wardens rushed out of the dungeon forgetting about their prisoner and
the wide open door. Without an instant of a second thought Glorfindel
followed, the defense of his city the only thing on his mind. Grabbing
the first sword he could lay his hands on he threw himself in the raging
heart of the battle. Instinctively he took command like he was used
to do and on pure instinct his warriors followed his lead like they
were used to do for centuries. But already everything was lost, the
Hidden City had fallen and the only thing left to be done was to help
its surviving inhabitants to escape to safety. Like a lion the Golden
Warrior fought for his people�s safe passage to the mountain caves,
like a lion he fought clad in nothing than his prison garb, the number
C.3.3 his only shield of protection. Bleeding from uncountable wounds
he unwaveringly wielded his sword with tiring arms.� Some more
minutes, just some more minutes and the citizens would be safe. When
the Balrog descended blowing out his fiery breath against the fugitives
Glorfindel roared aloud with anger and frustration, thus dragging the
vile beast�s attention on him. One more minute; accumulating the last
shreds of his strength the Lord of the Golden Flower stood up to his
predominant enemy, fighting him with almost superelven forces, finally
managing to plunge his sword deep into the creature�s heart. In the
throes of death, the Balrog lashed out for his defeater. As the first
light of the sun touched fair Gondolin Glorfindel�s flesh was branded
by the fiery whip and as the sun rose above the mountains he was exiled
to the Halls of Mandos, never to see his city again. �
**********~~~~~~~~~~~*********
A faint movement on the bed
brought Glorfindel out of his painful musings � Erestor! Slowly regaining
consciousness the dark-haired advisor shifted under his blanket, moving
his head as if in agony. In a rush the golden elf was at his side tenderly
stroking his hand over the furrowed brow. In an instant the pained expression
melted away and the counselor instinctively snuggled into his beloved�s
comforting touch. With an effort he opened his eyes, still dull with
pain and weakness, and struggling against his frailness curled his lips
into a trembling smile.�
�Love�, a hoarse breath
seemingly from the far end of the universe, almost inaudible even for
keen elven ears but reverberating through Glorfindel�s soul like the
roll of thunder.�
�I feared you lost,� voice
faltering under the onslaught of emotions the reborn elf was unable
to hold back his tears letting them flow freely down his cheeks without
any trace of shame.�
�Hold me,� still a whisper
though less distant and distinctively increasing in stability, �just
let me feel you, cold �so very cold.��
Without a moment�s delay
the golden one slid under the blanket wrapping his body around his lover
in a peaceful embrace.� For time on end they stayed like this,
touching and sharing tender kisses, relinquishing the feeling of being
able to hold one another, of being able to breath in the other�s scent
and feel their combined warmth surrounding their bodies. After what
seemed to be an eternity of quiet endearment Glorfindel slowly pulled
out of their embrace, gradually aware that his lover would need more
then the nearness of his body to fully regain his strength. With a pleading
whimper Erestor skimmed after him, not willing to be segregated from
the soothing proximity.�
�Hush, love, I won�t leave
you.� Carefully extracting himself from the clinging arms Glorfindel
tried again to slip out of the bed. �I�m just going to fix some
broth for you. Will be back in no time at all. You�ll have to eat
to regain your strength.��
�No soup. Don�t want you
to leave.� Holding on to his lover�s tunic with still feeble hands
the advisor managed to pull him back into his arms. �There�s just
one sustenance I need. One sustenance containing all the nutriments
to make me feel alive again. Please, don�t deny me what I so direly
crave. Let me drink from the wellspring of life.��
The wellspring of life �
involuntarily Glorfindel felt his blood rush to his groin, exactly knowing
what Erestor desired. The wellspring of life � the first time the
scribe had used this term, explaining its meaning to his incredulous
lover, the golden Warrior had been shocked. Never had he imagined that
someone would want to take � that - into his mouth; that someone even
could think of tasting the slippery fluid of his release. Only reluctantly
had he given in to his lover�s desire, unsure if he would be able
to enjoy the unknown ministrations. However, all his unsureness had
been blown away with the first loving touch of soft lips on his straining
member, with the first wet swipe of an eager tongue over the heated
crown. This had turned out to be the most blissful experience in his
hitherto existence and when he finally had come back from the most powerful
climax all that had been on his mind was to evoke the same feelings
in his lover as soon as possible.�
Now however, with Erestor being
barely back to life, only shortly having escaped the grip of death and
still weak like a newborn, Glorfindel felt insecurity surfacing once
more. His flesh hardened at the thought of the advisor�s silky-smooth
mouth, but still� Wouldn�t it be like taking advantage of someone
too ailing to think clearly, wouldn�t he feel like he�d be molesting
the one he loved most by giving in to his own desire? At the other hand
Erestor had asked for it, wanted it as much as he, but was he really
able to truly grasp what he asked for? With a sigh the golden warrior
shook his head.�
�I�m not sure if that�s
a good idea, love. You�re still too weak; I don�t want to harm you.
But I,� blushing to a deep shade of pink he swallowed past the lump
in his throat, �I could spill into a cup and feed it to you if that�s
what you want.��
�No, love,� Erestor managed
an assuring smile, feeble though it was albeit his voice still wavered
with exhaustion. �I need to have it from the very source with all
your love and strength flowing within. Please, love, don�t reject
me when I�m so direly in need, it will help me to feel alive again,
help me to regain my strength. Just help me to sit up and don�t deny
me what I so desperately crave.��
With a last glance into beseeching
brown eyes Glorfindel helped his lover to lean against the headboard
and carefully placed his knees on either side of his waist. With trembling
hands he opened his breeches and guided his already straining erection
to the moist mouth eagerly opened in expectance. Weak he was, his Erestor,
so very weak, feeble lips barely wrapped around the swollen head his
tongue only circled the weeping slit with kitten-like licks. And �
Valar � it felt good, so very, very good. The reborn elf almost sobbed
with the blissful sensations surging through his entire being. Brazing
one arm against the wooden wall he buried his face in the crook of his
elbow his other hand instinctively running up and down his rigid length.
Bolts of rapture seized his body with every tiny movement of the nimble
tongue. Ah Valar help � how could this feel so good, how could his
body abandon itself so entirely to elation when at the same time his
mind still struggled against the feeling of abusing his helpless beloved
for his own pleasure.�
Trying in vain to bite back
the most blissful moans Glorfindel fought hard to keep his hips from
plunging deep into the unresisting mouth as all his senses demanded
to give himself over to unreined ecstasy. But no, he�d hurt his beloved
adviser if he gave in to the overwhelming sensations and this never
ever was to be. Desperately clinging on to the last shreds of awareness
he struggled to hold back. His whole body shook with both rapture and
frustration, breath coming forth in sobbing moans, ever increasing in
speed and ardor as he tumbled towards the vortex of a mind-shattering
climax.�
Suddenly the sliver of a thought
cursed through his brain. A thought petrifying in its clarity. Glorfindel
would spill deep into his lovers throat, his seed would jet forth I
heavy spurts. And Erestor was weak, too weak to swallow the erupting
liquor. He would choke his lover, choke him with his very own seed,
choke him while still riding out the waves of his own pleasure. With
utter desperation the golden one tried to quench his impending release,
pressing hard against the base of his aching shaft. But Erestor would
have none of it. With surprising strength he battered away the interfering
hand, increasing the flickers of his tongue. With an agonized howl Glorfindel
pressed the tip of his thumb against the leaking eye of his member,
thus trying anxiously to restrain the spouting gush. �
Still shaking from the force
of a breathtaking climax tears of rapture turned into tears of anguish.
It had happened again, again the one he loved more than everything,
had been killed by his irrepressible lust. Crying in devastating grief
Glorfindel didn�t dare to look at his lover�s body. So absorbed
was he in his suffering that he didn�t even notice the murmured words
of assurance, didn�t feel the soothing hands gliding over his back.
Only when a deft finger poked his ribs did he dare to look, gazing into
smiling brown eyes shining out of a face tinged with a healthy shade
of rose.�
Sobbing again, this time with
relief, the Golden Warrior let himself sink into the welcoming arms,
burying his face in his lover�s chest and soaking him with his tears.
Erestor � still struggling with emotions he let his mind wander back.�
**********~~~~~~~~~~~*********
So many things had changed
during the millennia of his absence, so many things that Glorfindel
was sure to have been born into another world. The Valar had granted
him a second life � well to be true it had been more of an order,
indispensable duties would be waiting for him, they�d said. At first
the Golden Warrior hadn�t been quite sure if he should be pleased
to be able to leave the Halls of Waiting, if his call should be seen
as gratification or as just another sign of the Valar�s inscrutable
sense of humor, but with time he had grown very content with his new
life.�
In nothing Imladris could be
compared to the Hidden City. A sun-drenched valley with friendly, open-minded
inhabitants ruled by the most wise and benevolent Lord Elrond, nothing
at all like stern and unyielding Gondolin. But what came to Glorfindel
as utter surprise was that there were males living openly as a couple,
their affection for everyone plain to see. Openly - and no one seemed
to care. They were still esteemed members of the community , partly
even holding high ranks and no one spit on them or called them names
of despise. But surely the decent elves of Imladris were only too well-mannered
to show their disgust in public, surely they would slander about these
aberrations in the privacy of their homes. For a long time the reborn
elf was unable to deal with the turmoil of envy and lingering apprehension
warring in his soul at this startling revelation. Every time he noticed
two ellyn sharing loving glances or even tender touches he inwardly
cringed with alarm and every single shard of his soul urged him on to
call out a warning for the couple not to jeopardize their lives. �
Right after his arrival at
Imladris Lord Elrond had given his Chief Advisor Erestor at Glorfindel�s
side to help him settle in, to help him get used to this strange new
life. From the first moment, the reborn elf had felt an unexpected sense
of nearness towards the dark-haired ellon, so austere and duteous in
his work and so kind and easygoing in private. As much as he wanted
to avoid it, to keep to his usual withdrawn way of life, he couldn�t
help but accept the unobtrusively offered friendship. A friendship he
sometimes, in the most hidden places of his heart, longed for to turn
to more. But never would he show any sign of his secret yearning, casting
these unsought thoughts away as soon as they raised their offensive
heads. �
As often as his schedule allowed
the Golden Warrior had made it his habit to attend Erestor�s classes.
There were so many things he�d missed out during the time of his death,
so many things had changed and he intended to catch up with it as soon
as possible, not wanting to be looked at as a relict of the past.�
One day as Glorfindel again
entered the sunlit room where the counselor taught the youngsters, as
usually taking his seat in the background near the door, the whole classroom
seemed to be in turmoil. The children giggled and whispered among themselves
and even stern Erestor had to work hard to get their attention. Only
after the third time of asking for an explanation, he finally managed
to get an answer.�
�Lindir and Melpomen kissed!�
A new fit of giggles burst through the classroom.�
Glorfindel felt a cold hand
grip his intestines and reach for his heart. Involuntarily he held his
breath. Now it would happen, now his new friend would tell his pupils
that although elves like this were not� shunned, their abnormal
ways tolerated, due to Lord Elrond�s interminable graciousness, but
that nevertheless their doings were abhorrently wrong, nothing a proper
elf� would ever get involved with. The Balrog Slayer�s stomach
tightened as he looked at Erestor�s almost grim face.�
�Well little ones, tell me
then,� The scribe�s voice was serious, his eyes unsmiling, �tell
me then, what there is to snicker about. Shouldn�t it be a day of
joy for everyone when two elves have found together in love? Don�t
you know the legend how love originally came into our world?� Leaning
comfortable against his desk Erestor let his gaze wander over the attentively
listening elflings, resting his eyes for a moment on Glorfindel�s
pale face, a small reassuring smile gracing his lips. �Well, listen
then.-�
�At the beginning of time
all elves consisted of two halves, grown together at the back. They
had two heads, two bellies and two sets of arms and legs. Like this
they were whole and strong, enjoying their existence in harmony and
peace. There were three kinds of beings: the Children of the Sun, consisting
of two males, the Children of the Earth, two females and the Children
of the Moon, combining one male and one female. But the Valar grew jealous
envying their indomitable power and their joyful life and they decided
to segregate them. With bolts of lightning they cut them in half, tearing
them apart at their backs. In agony and shock the now separated elves
fled in all directions. Since then all of us are desperately looking
for our other half, feeling only whole when we finally have found each
other. And that has been the origin of love. �
�So now tell me, children,
what is there to laugh at, when two Children of the Sun are finally
reunited after endless millennia of loneliness? It should be a day of
joy and celebration for everyone to witness.��
Internally shaking under the
onslaught of emotions Glorfindel listened to the uncurling of the story,
his mind reeling and his whole soul twisted in turmoil. Could it really
be � could it be that easy? Was he really simply a Child of the Sun
looking for his other � male � half? Not an abomination, not someone
to despise but simply � this? It looked so easy, seeing it like this,
so � normal, like there were thousands of them. Were there? Thousands?
Thousands of normal elves who just happened to be Children of the Sun?
Normal � like all the others?�
Blinking back his tears, unworthy
of a great warrior, the Balrog Slayer rushed out of the classroom, never
noticing Erestor�s bewildered eyes following his escape.�
The evening found the advisor,
a bottle if Imladris� finest wine in his hand, drumming his personal
pattern on his friend�s door. He had to repeat it for several times,
never ceasing his steady rhythm, never giving away any sign of impatience,
determined to get to understand the warrior�s startling behavior.
Only after minutes the door was slowly opened by a weary looking Glorfindel
his slightly swollen face and red-rimmed eyes indicating that he just
had been risen from sleep � or had he cried - ? �
When Glorfindel noticed the
soft knock on his door all he wanted to do was to hide away, hide away
and never ever again come out of his refuge. But as the constant pounding
went on and on he got aware that he wouldn�t be able to reject his
friend and gradually he felt the urge for companionship rise within
his soul. Erestor had been so serious in telling the old legend, so
convincing that everything was normal, that maybe, just maybe the scholar
would be willing to listen to his troubles, would be able to set things
right. Slowly he opened the door, painfully aware of his wretched appearance.�
Seemingly not noticing the
pitiful state the Golden Warrior was in Erestor entered the room, putting
the bottle on the table and reached for two glasses.�
�You know I�m your friend,
Glorfindel�, he said in an even voice looking straight into troubled
blue eyes, �You know, you can trust me. I would never press you; never
ask questions you�re not willing to answer. But know this, if you
want to talk, I�d feel honored to listen. And do believe me, that
not one single word of whatever we�ll speak about will leave this
room.��
Unable to speak Glorfindel
could only nod his silent agreement as he waved the advisor over to
the couch and sat down besides him, clinging to his glass of wine as
if it would be his last anchor. Taking a deep gulp he cleared his throat
for several times.�
�I would like to,� he whispered
unsteadily, �really, I would like it. But I haven�t spoken about
this to anyone, ever. I don�t know how to tell; don�t know where
to begin���
�Than take your time.�
Assuring Erestor took his friend�s hand. �Take as much time as you
need. And - start from the beginning, we have all time of the world.��
At this Glorfindel began to
talk, hesitantly at the beginning, but encouraged by the dark-haired
elve�s comforting grip the words soon flowed more freely. He told
of his youth in the Hidden City, of the oath he�d sworn to protect
the values of his city, of his anguish as he�d found out about his
aberration, of D�nen and the love they�d shared, the unjust trial
and his lover�s punishment. He told about Himilin�s treachery and
his own condemnation, about the attack of Gondolin in the last night
of his life, about his fight with the Balrog and his death in battle.
With every word he spoke a heavy weight he�d never been aware of having
to carry seemed to be lifted from his soul. As the tale went on Erestor
unconsciously intensified his soothing touches with increasingly shaky
fingers, no longer sure whom of them he wanted to calm down.�
�So you see,� the ghost
of a smile flickered over the golden one�s painstricken features,
�I�m not the hero, you all want me to see as. My live has been forfeit
when I gave it. I only exchanged the slow and agonizing death in the
mines with the swift and clean one on the battlefield. That�s the
part not written in your books.��
�No, never say a thing like
this!� Kneeling down in front of his friend the advisor took both
his hands into his own, burring his face in them for a long moment.
Tears blurred his vision as he looked again into the warrior�s equally
moist eyes. �Never say something like this ever again. You are a hero,
the greatest hero I�ve ever heard of. You fought for those who had
despised you, gave your life for the safety of those who had condemned
you to the most dreadful death. You could have fled instead, reached
for your own safety and life. How more heroic could an elf be? Please,
don�t ever diminish your deeds.��
�
�Fled?� A bitter laugh
tore free from the Balrog Slayer�s breast. �Fled and betrayed my
oath even more, sullied my conscience with the outmost treachery? Besides,
I haven�t been the knight in shining armor that day; I�ve been nothing
more than an escaped convict, clad only in my prison garb, my prison
number making my shame plainly visible for every one. � C.3.3 �
I still shiver whenever I think of it.� The last words were nothing
more than a murmur.�
�C ��Excited Erestor
jumped to his feet, almost crushing Glorfindel�s shoulders in his
grip, almost shaking him with agitation. �This had been your prison
number? Oh Valar now I understand! Don�t you know � no, how could
you ��Calming himself he locked his gaze with the warrior holding
onto him with a steady but gentle clasp. �Do you know what has happened?
Do you know that this term has become a battle-cry, used only in the
direst moments of war? I have heard Gilgalad�s elite troops call it
out when they regrouped for their last attack against Mordor. They call
it out in your honor, even if they don�t know its meaning. Do you
realize what you have done? You have changed a term of shame into a
term of honor!��
The Golden Warrior had begun
to tremble at his friend�s first words, now the tremors intensified
to almost the frenzy of seizures as his control broke down like straw
under the force of a landslide. Sobs he had so bravely mastered to hold
back fought their way out of his breast and tears unshed for aeons flooded
his face. Almost unconscious he collapsed into Erestor�s arms, heavy
crying fits surging through his body. With tender care the advisor
placed the distraught elf onto his lap, burying his face securely in
the crook of his neck, his hands dragging soothing circles over the
shaking back, rocking him gently like a child in a cradle, while his
own tears flowed unabashed. Painful compassion for the terrible tribulation
the elf he secretly had come to love had been exposed to tore his heart
in hundreds of tiny peaces. For time on end they stayed like this weeping
until they had no more tears to shed. Even then the scribe was reluctant
to let go of the still shivering body in his arms. Unnoticeable tightening
his embrace to a more sensual degree he continued his loving ministrations
placing feathery kisses on the still furrowed brows and shining golden
hair. After an eternity of quiet comfort Glorfindel finally moved in
the consoling hug, cuddling even closer to his friend�s breast, as
he slowly turned his head until their lips brushed together in a first
tender kiss.�
From this day on they were
to be found together every minute their duties allowed. First Glorfindel
was still reluctant, flinching every time when Erestor smiled at him
or took his hand in public, but the unobtrusive approval of the inhabitants
of Imladris slowly managed to diminish his inhibitions. At a steady
pace their love grew, not to the frenzy of lust he had experienced with
D�nen but to a deep emotion of mutual trust and understanding. Erestor
patiently waited for his lover to get comfortable with this completely
new situation, never pushing him, never asking anything he was nor ready
yet to give. Thus years went by with their love to grow into a stable
force, a force strong enough to defend even death, but there still was
one step the golden one was hesitant to take. Not here, not among all
these elves, kind and appreciative how they might be, not when he had
the feeling that all of them would know what he had done. That was when
Lord Elrond of his own volition offered them a week�s repast in his
own secluded retreat.�
**********~~~~~~~~~~~*********
Erestor�s body healed well
under his lover�s gentle care but his mind still stayed withdrawn,
the emptiness of the misty plain still lingering in his eyes. He felt
well and safe whenever resting in his beloved�s arms, but as soon
as Glorfindel left him, be it only for a single moment, for preparing
food or restocking the firewood the bone-freezing chill of the place
between the worlds crept straight down to his very bones. Still the
glimmering door shone bright in his vision, opened for him in welcome,
increasingly pulling his soul towards its peaceful promise. He fought
the pull with all of his willpower but no one knew how long he would
be able to resist. There was no denying of the fact that the Chief Advisor
of Imladris was slowly fading.�
�Stay with me, love!� Glorfindel
whispered covering his beloved�s face with passionate kisses. �Stay
with me, I beg you. Don�t make me having you called back to life for
naught. I wouldn�t be able to live without you. Tell me what you need
to stay and I will do anything you ask for.� �
�Then do it, my golden one,
take me, make me completely yours.� Still feeble hands traced sensuous
patterns over the warrior�s chest, gradually gliding down towards
his groin. �Fill the emptiness within me with the force of your love;
drive the chill away with the heat of your passion.��
�I can�t!� Shocked blue
eyes searched for a steady brown gaze. �I can�t, you�re still
too weak, I would hurt you and I never would do aught to hurt you.��
�Do it, love. You called
me back from death and I heeded your call. But a part of my soul still
is bound to the misty plain, its emptiness and chill still threatening
me whenever I�m not resting in your arms. The shining door is still
opened for me, beckoning to me with increasing force and I�m no longer
sure how long I will be able to withstand its pull. Please, love, I
beseech you, fulfill what you have started, bring me back to life completely.�
Tracing ardent kisses over his lover�s breast and stomach he murmured
against already heated skin �Make me whole.��
�Then be it!� Arousal
surging through his veins, making his blood pool in his groin Glorfindel
swallowed with a heavy sigh. �But you�ll have to help me, for I�ve
never done this before.��
�Let me lie on my side, it
will be les strenuous for both of us.� Moaning with anticipation Erestor
quickly shifted over into the most comfortable position. �Now coat
your fingers with oil and loosen up the tight muscle of my entrance.
I would do it myself, would I not be too weak.��
With shaking hands the Golden
Warrior obeyed, circling the puckered opening with slippery fingers.
But still he was reluctant to breach the yielding body.�
�Ah, yes, that�s good!�
Erestor moaned encouragingly pressing back against the probing finger
eager for deeper contact. �Now put it in, love, ah � yes, like this,
feels so good. Move it, push it deep in. Valar � yes � give me another
one � open me up for you � ah sweet Valar � like this � feels
so good.��
Elated by the heartily response
Glorfindel drove his fingers deep into the velvety channel, twisting
and scissoring, thus turning his lover into an incoherently babbling
heap. Only when the moaned �Now�s and �Please�s and �Do it�s
became increasingly urgent did he align his straining, well-oiled length
with the flexing entrance and slowly started to push in. When the thick
crown penetrated the guardian muscle for the first time Erestor was
unable to stifle a slight hiss of discomfort. At once Glorfindel stilled
his movements.�
�I hurt you!� Voice hoarse
with arousal and suppressed need the golden elf placed soothing kisses
over his lover�s shoulders. �Please forgive me, love, I�ll stop
if you want.��
�No, it�s nothing.� Groaning
Erestor pushed back against the invading rod taking it deeper inside
of his body. �It stings a little, but it�s a good hurt. It makes
me feel alive. Don�t leave me, fill me up to the hilt � let me feel
you deep inside of me.��
Moaning in rapture as his aching
arousal was fully enclosed in the tight heat that was Erestor, Glorfindel
started to set up a slow and steady pace, driving his member deep into
his lover�s body before dragging it out almost completely. Blissful
waves of heat rolled through Erestor�s body emerging from the thick
column of his lover�s flesh, filling the emptiness of his soul with
every deep thrust. The movements of his body became more and more erratic,
his breathing hoarse and fast, as he felt himself driven towards the
realm of ecstasy. His hand reached for his own throbbing flesh only
to be pushed away when Glorfindel cupped his balls and straining organ
with gentle pressure. Shuddering in the first throes of cosmic bliss
he reached back to grab his lover�s hip.�
�Close, love �ah so close
� come with me � ah so good � come deep inside of me � fill
me � ah yes ... flood me with the essence of your love � ah Valar
�NOW!��
The clenching spasms of the
velvety channel enhanced by the ardently moaned pleas sent the Golden
Warrior straight into a crushing vortex of mind -shattering bliss. Throwing
back his head with a ragged wail he thrust one more time deep into the
pleasure-wrecked body ere he stiffened in trembling rapture flooding
his lover with spurts after spurts of his relief.�
Shining sparks of heat surged
through Erestor�s whole being as he echoed his lover�s ecstatic
scream, his own body seized in the overwhelming force of his climax,
casting away the last shreds of chill and emptiness.�
As the first light of the sun
touched the secluded glade the two lovers slowly returned from their
blissful high, sharing tender kisses and endearments. And as the sun
rose over the trees she smiled gently at her children, finally united,
as they ought to be since the beginning of time.�
The End
D�nen � quiet water
Himilin � cold arrow