Author:
Jo aka Slashgirl
Title:
Beautiful
Pairing:
?/? (hinted Nicky/Mark)
Rating:
PG I think
Warning:
Character death, sad story, keep tissues handy
Disclaimer:
Seen as to my knowledge all of the 'Lifers are still alive and healthy this is obviously
not true and I hope for their sakes it'll stay that way!
Lyrics:
BEAUTIFUL - HIM, posted on list by Tash.
Summary:
looking back on life.
Just
one look into your eyes
One
look and I'm crying
'Cause
you're so beautiful
I've
had a lot in my life so far. More than a lot of people could dream of. I've had
the chance to make my dreams come true, I've had good friends by my side to
support me through the highs and the lows and most importantly, I had you. I
look into your beautiful blue eyes, watching the tears fall down as you feel,
like myself, that the end is coming nearer.
Just
one kiss and I'm alive
One
kiss and I'm ready to die
'Cause
you're so beautiful
It's
like my life started when I met you. You were only just 18, I was about to turn
20. We didn't bond quickly as you were so shy then and it took a while before
you opened up to me but once you did it didn't take long for us to get
together. But then one night as we were away from home you came to me. You were
homesick and needed comforting. I took you in my arms and as your tears
subsided you looked in my eyes and leant closer, making our lips meet. You
haven't kissed me in a while now. I reckon you're scared with all these tubes
in me but I need you to kiss me. Just one last kiss, before it's too late. You
must have sensed what I'm thinking as you lean closer, brushing your full lips
over mine, so carefully it's as if you think I'll break. I suppose that's not
too far from the truth really.
Just
one touch and I'm on fire
One
touch and I'm crying
'Cause
you're so beautiful
You
sit down on the chair beside my bed - you've almost not left that chair in the
past week, ever since the doctors told you there was nothing more they could do
and the end was nearing. You take my hand in yours, caressing it with your
thumb. The touch feels like it's burning, or is that because my skin is cold?
It's a good kind of burning though, warming me up inside as I know you love me.
I want to stay with you my love, but I can't hold on much longer. I've fought
for so long now, I can't keep fighting. It's been too long.
Just
one smile and I'm wild
One
smile and I'm ready to die
'Cause
you're so beautiful
You
also feel it's that time and you smile for me as tears still stream down your
eyes. I know it's hurting you but you're trying to be brave for me, trying to
let me know it's OK to let go, to give in and end my suffering. I can't say
it's been easy for me but it's been even harder on you and I know the pain's
just starting for you. We've built our lives around each other since we met and
now you'll have to learn to live without me. "I'll never be gone,
love," I promise. "I'll keep watching over you." You nod, taking
my hand in yours even stronger. "I'll never forget you," you whisper
back. At that I can't take it any longer, I'm so tired, I need to sleep. You
nod and smile for me through the tears: "It's OK, rest now. You need
it."
Oh
and you're so beautiful
My
darling
Oh
you're so beautiful
You're
so beautiful
Oh
my baby
You're
so beautiful
And
you're so beautiful
Oh
my darling
Oh
my baby
And
you're so beautiful
They're
laying my body in its final resting place now but I'm still watching over you,
I always will do that. You're still so beautiful even now with red-rimmed eyes
from crying. Your best friend tries to comfort you but you shrug off his hand,
telling him you want only me to comfort you. I move closer and whisper:
"I'm watching over you." As if you heard that, a small smile plays on
your lips and you tell him: "He's not gone. He promised he'd keep watching
over me." He smiles and puts his arm around you: "I'm sure he's
watching over you now." And he's right, I am watching over you and I smile
as I know that with a little help from our friends you'll be alright...
THE
END