Author: Jo aka Slashgirl

Title: Right Kind Of Wrong

Pairing: Nicky/? (Yes you can imagine a ShNicky if you want - had someone else in mind though!)

Rating: bit more adult than my usual stuff, don't know what this would rate as really.  Oh well, you've had the warning and we're all adults here so...

Disclaimer: As true as Mark's straight - in other words FICTION! (Sorry, just had to say that again - it had been too long!)

 

 

 

 

RIGHT KIND OF WRONG

 

Know all about
About your reputation
And how it's bound to be a heartbreak situation
But I can't help it if I'm helpless
Every time that I'm where you are

 

Everywhere I come I hear the words.  A player, a flirt, a tease.  They never say anything good about you.  Both of us are known not to back down in arguments, both of us are as strong headed as each other.  One of these days it's gonna be too much and I won't be able to stand it any longer.  You hurt me so much sometimes when we're arguing and it gets out of hand, then again I've given you more than your fair share of bruises as well.  But when we're alone together afterwards and you're moving inside me I lose all the strength and willpower I ever had and just revel in the closeness, loving the way you love me and knowing the passion can never go without the pain with us.  So I stay, night after night I come back to you for more of the same.

 

You walk in and my strength walks out the door
Say my name and I can't fight it anymore
Oh I know, I should go
But I need your touch just too damn much

 

I'm helpless when you're around me, time after time I try to be strong and not let you get to me, time after time I come to your room with the thought of breaking up but I never will - you may be wrong for me but it's the right kind of wrong...


Loving you isn't really something I should do
Shouldn't wanna spend my time with you
I should try to be strong
But baby you're the right kind of wrong
Yeah baby you're the right kind of wrong

 

Maybe Mark's right, he's been telling me time and time again that what you and I have is a mistake but I just can't let go.  If this is a mistake I'm glad to make it, I wouldn't give this up for the world even if it is hurting me.  You make me feel better than anyone has ever made me feel.  After the arguments and fights, after the kissing and making up, when I'm lying in your arms spent, our sweat mixing on my back, your chest.  Those moments when it gets hard to tell where I end and you begin 'cause we're just too close, those are my favourite time of night. 

 

Might be a mistake
A mistake I'm making
But what you're giving I am happy to be taking
Cause no one's ever made me feel
The way I feel when I'm in your arms

 

They say you're something I should do without
They don't know what goes on
When the lights go out
There's no way to explain
All the pleasure is worth all the pain

 

I really shouldn't love you, I shouldn't have fallen for you but you snuck in my room and my heart like a thief in the night - you stole my heart.  Just as you had stolen Georgina's or maybe you were even crueler than that to me - I can never steal your heart as she already owns it.  But as long as you're giving me those stolen moments in the dark I'm happy to be taking whatever you're giving me - abuse and love all the same. 

 

Loving you isn't really something I should do
Shouldn't wanna spend my time with you
That I should try to be strong
But baby you're the right kind of wrong
Yeah baby you're the right kind of wrong

 

I only realised too late how much I depend on you.  Maybe I really am in too deep - but there's no turning back.  The safe shore I started from is too far away and I can't feel the ground anymore.  Once we had to be apart for a few days and I had time to think.  Think about what I wanted from my life, think about what I really have and think about us.  I was almost sure I could really break up with you, that I could somehow break free and run but one phone call, one phone call, Nick, sent me driving all the way to Malahide in about two hours - breaking every speed limit and almost flying over the N4 to get to you.  One phone call, one word from you and I was helpless again, needing you more than anything.

 

I should try to run
But I just can't seem to
Cause everything I run you're the one I run to
Can't do without, what you do to me
I don't care if I'm in too deep

 

I know you're a flirt, a player, a tease.  I know you're bad for me and that I shouldn't even want to be with you after all that's happened but with God as my witness, I just can't help myself.  I don't care about the pain, just as long as we get to be together for a few stolen moments after.  Then you'll go back to Georgina and I find myself envying her, knowing all the while that she and you will never have the same passion as you and I have.  She's safe, your haven in the storm of life, I'm dangerous to you with all our fights but you love the thrill, the passion as we make up.

 

Know all about
About your reputation
And how it's bound to be a heartbreak situation
But I can't help it if I'm helpless
Every time that I'm where you are

 

Now I know, whatever else happens, I will always be helpless when it comes to you.  There's about as much chance I could live without you as there is for me to live without air.  I need you - even if you hurt me.  I need to be around you like a fish needs to be in the water and a ship needs a harbour to come back to.  This ship can stay at sea a while and survive but it needs a harbour sometimes to reload, get provisions.  That's how I need you, Nicky.  You won't give me your all, Georgina owns most of that, but let me have our stolen moments, they're enough for me to keep holding on and coming back to you.

 

You walk in and my strength walks out the door
Say my name and I can't fight it anymore
Oh I know I should go
But I need your touch just too damn much

 

You caught me singing along to a LeAnn Rimes song once and never thought twice about it - you don't know how true that song is to me.  Loving you really isn't something I should do, I'm supposed to be the strong one but you broke through all my defences - I never meant to love you but I do...


Loving you isn't really something I should do
Shouldn't wanna spend my time with you
That I should try to be strong
But baby you're the right kind of wrong
Yeah baby you're the right kind of wrong

 

THE END

 

 

 

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