07/25/05 , 08:03pm:
Blog duties now go to
mypace
06/14/05 , 2:04pm:
Yes I am alive. i am still me. i am here to answer one question. one answer that will help you sleep like a child. don't waste your time with me if you want to walk side by side with me. you, especially you, can only walk behind me. i will let you go and have left you go because my path is not wide. i don't NEED someone to walk by my side. i NEED someone to walk behind me and give me a push and sometimes a kick on the ass once in a while. ok enough about that, just some drift wood that needed to pass by.
for those that are curious i am using my best judgement right now on how to live my life. on how to succeed on my terms.
question:
can existentialism and happiness exist simultaneously in one man?? such a dichotomy has never existed and will never exist. thus is my problem. i can always teach. i can always make money. i am guaranteed to make a decent living if i decide to teach. this is a guarantee. nothign but a felony will change this. so why do it now? why play it safe. why be content. why make the future known? i want a Hericlition future. nothing static. remember i want to live forever. which at certain times of my life i thought the task daunting, now it is nothign but an inevitability. such is the nature of time and space. however there is a catch. when your body exits this stable lovable linear dimension, it enters a dimension when time is not linear. i have devised such outcomes. you become a quantum leaper. or you, as in your matter, joins the bubble of soup where you exists everywhere at every conceibable and unconceivable moment. the latter would suck. the end. got a life to destroy.
02/02/04 , 12:50am:
Finally got on livejournalcom. So I iwll just use this part for News. Pats Super Bowl Champs!!
01/29/04 , 02:01pm:
Man i really am ahead in my school work. I am really suprised. I guess its because im about to graduate that i am really trying now, or it must be that th ebooks so far are really good.
Well i need to clean my room, I still have soem bags of laundry to do. Next time i choose an apt to live in, i will strongly consider thta they have washer & dryer connections inside the apt. Well Taz still hasnt' cleaned the god-damned bathroom, and yes God has damed that bathroom. Poor bathroom hasnt' ben cleand since nov, whihc is the last time i cleaned it. i would have cleaned it before break, but Taz told me he would do it. Fucker has his mom do all his chores at home, so he doen't do any here. He has only cleaned the bathroom only one time since we have been living here, we have lived here since august 2002, he last cleaned the bathrrom feb 2003. So here we are a year later. It does annoy me, but i will not nag, because that will only make him a better person in such housely manners. Anyway if he doesn't clean it, and i end up cleaning it, i will no longer allow him to use that particular bathroom.
Shit, Rob is gonna be here this wekend, and then Morris plans to come the weekend after that one. So it's a good thign im ahead in my hw.
Oh yeah stupid dan forgot to meet me for lunch today. After ten minutes I suspected that he must not have gone to school and is still sleeping. 7 minutes later, thta suspicion was confirmed. I should have taken my phone with me, though.
Closign remark: My english seminar teacher hs decided to name me, Mr Garcia. Don't know how or when it happened. And it sems that by correcting him everytime he calls out to me is of no use. Oh well.
01/25/04 , 10:12pm:
Well i wasted today playing video games, crap felt awful considering i had made a terrific job of not wasting time. But lapses are inevitable. I am gong to make up for it tomorrow, as i do laundry. And the work i was supposed to do today, I will still do it today, even if it means tht i have to short change my sleep. Well i just wanted to chronicle my failure as a reminder, i am going to go save face.
01/23/04 , 11:00pm:
Damn im tired today. Been waking up early to go to school. Well i have discovered a great book, joyce's portrait of a young artist. Great book so far.
well today in that same class i was met by a perfect speciment of my ideal woman, well physically. Shit, those damn school girl uniforms combined with seom flashes of punk do it all the time. Tara is the name of this beauty, hopefully she is not dumb as a rock. She has inspired em to write music, cause that is all that music is all about, well at least rock music, girls. Shit came home today and for the first time in merely a year actually sat down and started to write an original song. And i got to say its a great riff. Jesus one the the top 5 riffs ive ever written, now i just need the lyrics and just add a little more to the song. great just great. I won't be missing that class anytime soon.
Oh Yeah. Rob is coming this thursday, so i got to be ahead in my hw so that i can entertain my guest, not like Taz is gonna hang out with him, Taz is a little pathetic when it coems to that. Well i am going to go read a little or play/compose guitar, hehe.
01/17/04 , 10:00pm:
carpe diem. but enough of that. this year i will regain my guitar prowlessnes or however you spell it. well back to playing guitar.
12/12/03 , 04:33am:
Well tomorrow is my final final. woo hoo. i mean today at 9am is my final final. man, and i haven't studied yet. but it should not be hard. ill begin to skim over the plays when i finish writign here. well ill start when i finish eating. im gonna make soem breakfast today so i can be able to concentrate today. and since i have been sleeping around 7am the last couple night, damn civilization 3 its a stupid game, i will not be dead tired when i take the test. well today i barely continued my search for et. i downloaded seti. that guy who found the larges prime number inspired me to join in the hunt by using many computers as a super computer. well im going to continue cleaning my room. ill stop at 5am, then ill shower and make breakfast, then and only then will i begin to study. casue i dont' care i tell you i dont' care, its not like im going ot flunk this test, i am too intelligent. a dn like i told my friends, i dotn 'like getting a's because that is showing off, im too humble, hehehe. well laters.
12/05/03 , 12:29am:
Wow, finally writing in here. I won't describe what happened last weekend, it would ruin my political career. Well today i just watched a movie, the first Indiana Jones movie, it was ok. I decided today i wasn't going to buy anymore dvd's until after i graduate, hehe sound familiar? Well i really am going to achieve this goal. Fuck it i am not double spacing after every sentence. Well im helping Rob with his girl problems, i think he is just too nice. Man i dont' want to wake up early tomorrow. friends want to go see a movie, last samurai or soemthign like that. but ill probably wake up. hate staying home and playing video games. which is exactly what im going to do once i get off this thing. fuck too much caffeein right now. i was ready to call it a night 2 hours ago, but after a couple can's of pepsi si, stupid name, im back on. fuck well i will play guitar and not play stupid video games. woo hoo. rock on.
07/20/03 , 01:20am:
So much free time, just taking one class this summer session. Tomorrow's my birthday, but i have to go to school. Birthdays are not important anyways, not until you have done something extraordinary, not until you have affected more people in a good way. So far I'm financially stable, for now. Gonna buy more good books from now on, and less dvd's. I have come to the conclusion that I am not mentally stable, it's sad but oh well. Am I happy? No, but am I unhappy? No. I just want to live my life like the old philosophers did. I don't care about money, and I am generous. I'm just bitter at the modern world. I'd rather live alone, then participate in such disillusion. Well, I'm gonna go read the Odyssey, haven't read it in a long time. Need to catch up on it. I'm going thru my Homer stage this month. Laters.
04/10/03 , 04:36am:
I changed my e-mail address and i am changing my url. So keep up. I will stop promising to work on this page, but i will try to little by little.
11/09/02 , 12:02am:
I put a link to where you can view my movie files, but i haven't put any movie files to view yet. I will try to do it this weekend.
11/08/02 , 01:53pm:
I am adding some essays for you people to read. guess which ones i wrote my freshman year, and which ones i wrote this past year.
11/05/02 , 02:38pm:
People you have to view the page at 1024 by 768 resolution and have your text setting at larger. If you don't then this page will look like shit. thank you.
11/04/02 , 03:09pm:
Well completing this page sucks, it takes too long. but slowly i will complete this.