Denial is what she feels
Anger is what she is
Her heart�s is made up of hatred
For a world she does not even know

She meets this guy at the bar
He�s gay
She gets a new car
It crashes the next day

Ephemeral and out of reach
That�s what her life is all about
Endless disappointments
Unsatisfied cravings

She does her best at everything
With no intention to please
Still she gets nothing back
Nothing that she wants

Her head is in her hands
It�s screaming and screaming
Her brain was to explode
And no one is helping

No one�s there to see her
She�s not crying
She has not slit her wrists
Her sanity is still intact

Then her body starts complaining
But still no one understands
No one wants to understand
They just don�t want to see the signs

She�s crumbling down
Inside, she�s another tower on fire
Totally helpless and in pain
In so much pain

She takes a pen and prints �PAIN� on her brow
But it�s too late
Everyone�s immune to her pain
They�ve been apathized by their own worries

She cannot cry anymore
All she can do is sneer at the others
How could they not see it?
Why don�t they take her in their arms?

The guy in the bar drank himself to death
Her insurance company went bankrupt
Everyone�s leaving her alone
All alone in a world that she hates

She slaps her hands on her ears
She cannot stand the laughter outside
How dare they laugh?
When she�s in such misery?

Sadness overcomes denial
She�s got no life and no friends
She�s trapped in an imaginary world
Made up in her head

She realises that she can�t run from her head
It�s the only place she feels secure
That perfect world of hers
Where everything goes her way

But she can�t stay there forever
Every time she comes out of it
She�s totally lost
Lost for words, lost for feelings, lost for life

Lost turns to panic,
Panic turns to disappointment
That sinking feeling
That she�s learning to live with

For she feels so empty
So useless and so dead
Whenever she leaves her world
And enters the one she hates
So angry and so lethargic
She feels so much hatred
That she�s scared of herself
Every time she faces the world
That world where there�s no place for her
And her pain.

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