JoUrNal
My daily journal on website, leaving all good or bad memories......
15 May 2004
Went to Holiday Inn ParkView for high tea...
later we went to Plaza Singapura for a chat...saw these beautiful racing
cars!!.....
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30 April 2004
at times, i jus dunno he mean serious or
joking....really kinda of tired of this feeling, maybe i giving
up?..dunno..lately been happening too many things..i tooo tired to think of
it...really tired..tired..maybe i shld juz let go.....its pointless...e feeling
is not as strong as it used to be..or maybe i afraid the results?.....i dun
wanna think...
"Let The Music Heal Your Soul" - BACKSTREET BOYS
Oh if someone writes a song with a simple rhyme
Just a song where is feeling show
And if someone feels the same about the simple song
Oh sometimes you can hear them sing
Music gives you happiness or sadness
But it also, it also heals your soul
[Chorus:]
Let the music heal your soul
Let the music take control
Let the music give you the power to move any mountain
Oh if someone plays piano with some simple chords
So melodic and endearing too
And oh if someone plays guitar with the old piano
And maybe you can hear them sing
Music gives you happiness or sadness
But it also heals your soul
[Chorus]
Oh yeah
Let the music heal you soul
Let the music take control
Let the music heal you soul
Oh, oh yes
Let the music heal your soul
Let the musice take control
[6x]
29 Apr 2004
wondering why everyone dun like her..personally me
n our unit respect her,...even so much those "evil ppl" around..juz
dun understand..
never mind, as long she know we will be supporting her all the way..
Quote : Believe one who has proved it. Believe an expert.
Virgil (70 BC - 19 BC), Aeneid
25 Apr 2004
..kinda of confused...last mth..we juz
separated with our bozz..cos she been transfered to other dept..but now she back
with us..BUT only with four of us..to form a new unit..which mean WE will be
separated with others colleagues......
..which
i really dun feel like it..they are juz bunch of fun n lovely colleagues..esp
afew of them, if not for them I would have left the co....not although we are
back with our old boss, however at the same times..going to leave other
colleagues..this kinda of feeling realli...made one sad..
i think no one will understand my feeling now...cos even myself duno....
I Need You Tonight - BACKSTREET BOYS
Open up your heart to me
And say what's on your mind, oh yes
I know that we have been through so much pain
But I still need you in my life this time
And I need you tonight
I need you right now
I know deep within my heart
It doesn't matter if it's wrong or right
I really need you tonight
I figured out what to say to you
But sometimes the words they, they come out so wrong, always they do
And I know in time that you will understand
That what we have is so right this time
And I need you tonight
I need you right now
I know deep within my heart
It doesn't matter if it's wrong or right
All those endless times we tried to make it last forever more
And baby I know
I need you
I know deep within my heart
It doesn't matter if it's wrong or right
I really need you, oh
I need you tonight (I need you, oh I need you baby)
I need you right now (It's gotta be this, it's gotta be this)
I know deep within my heart
No, it doesn't matter if it's wrong or it's right
All I know is baby
I really need you tonight
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11 Apr 2004
went with a colleg ytd..such a fanastic show!!..we
enjoyed the 2 hrs 30 mins!!! 
...real
hot! ..
9 Apr 2004
Juz came back from dinner at Crystal Jade (Tampines
Mall) with my parents n sis, thinking we shld be going out more often, as when i
am free, shld accompany them out for dinner...lately been kinda of buzy with
work & study..kinda of neglected them esp my mum...
'
Tml i am going to the Saturday
Night Fever Musical Show at Esplanade
Theatre going with a colleague..
...shld
be quite nice...
Plan...
10 April 2004 - Saturday
Night Fever - Esplanade
Theatre
22 May 2004 - Cookin'
2004 - Suntec
City Convention Hall 602
9 July 2004
- Kevin Keern - The Winding Path Tour 2004
- Esplanadde Concert Hall
4 Apr 2004
Listening to this song, suddenly have this
kind of feeling, at times, we tend to hid our feeling towards others, just didn't
know how to express it to them, maybe just too shy..etc..however,
sometimes...just simple gesture means alot, "thank you".."u r
great"..if we were to lose the 1st chance to express to them...it may mean
forever ..eg..if u like this girl / guy..however never hv e chance to express to
her / him..or maybe just feeling shy..just hoping one day he / she will
understand..but how she / he will ever know..??..u try?...i tried..or maybe just
he / she afraid been rejected..??.....at time when we lost it...then began regretted...too
late?.....not only BGR...others, eg friendship..among frds, colleagues,..its
take "luck"+"fate"..to find that "one"..
"Was It
Something I Didn't Say" - 98 DEGREES
Spending another night alone
Wondering when I'm gonna ever see you again
Thinking what I would give to get
you back baby
I should have told you how I felt then
Instead I kept it to myself, yea
I let my love go unexpressed
'Til it was too late
You walked away
Was it something I didn't say
When I didn't say "I Love You"
Was it words that you never heard
All those words I should have told you
All those times, all these nights when I
had the chance to
Was it something I didn't say
Always assumed that you'd be there
Couldn't foresee the day you'd ever
be leaving me
How could I let my world slip through
my hands baby
I took for granted that you knew, yea
All of the love I had for you, yea
I guess you never had a clue
'Til it was too late
You walked away
[Chorus]
All the words were in my heart
They went unspoken
Baby now my silent heart
is a heart that's broken
Shoulda let you knkow you're the one
I needed near me
But I neber let you hear me
[Chorus]
3 Apr 2004
Had dinner with my cousins at sakae sushi at
wheelock place, been such a long time since we last met...normally we will meet
up once every few mths, to update info..
tml, i will going to my co. meeting, same time receiving my "Long Service Award"..hehee...been 5yrs liao since i joined...times really flies..been so much changes...up and down during these period..but glad able to overcome it......wish me good luck tml!! (^_^)
2 Apr 2004
Met up with the camera owner, we went to peninsula
plaza to replace their filer lens, as its my fault to drop their camera, been
feeling so bad these day...
31 Mar 2004
Met up few old frds at esplanade to celebrate my
belated bday..
we enjoyed our dinner at senses western fusin restaurant....its
been such a long time since we last meet up esp..ah cat..and most touching part,
she made a card with attached a photo which was abt 10+yrs ago when we still in
pri sch times..she is so thoughtful!!...which no $$ can buy...
..
after dinner, we proceed to haagen-dazs for our ice-cream session!! 
..oso
buzy taking pics..with my dig cam..and with our hp too...we just having a great
fun!!...we took more pics in the open space...this where something
happened!!...a couple asked to take pic for them..after taking one..been
nice,..i suggested took another one for them..AND this happened..e
camera just slip from my hand..and DROP..oh..my goodness,,,the lens broken...i
felt soo bad...realli bad..worst part, e camera dun belong to them, they borrow
from their frd..so they made a call to their frd..i apologised to them...and
decided to meet up with the owner tomorrow for solution......realli felt soo
bad..
after the incident, we proceed to embargo to hv some drinks...to calm ..hee
hee...however lucky, ytd nite incident didnt effect my performance
today..(interview for merit..or promotion...)..tried my best..
26 Mar 2004
Lunch time colleg n i went to suntec to collect
our textbook for 2nd module.
25 Mar 2004
HAPPY 26TH BIRTHDAY TO MYSELF!!!...YEAH
...now look soo different..n more confident now..!! cheers!!
23 Mar 2004
Back to work again..initally kinda of blues,
however this colleague of mine, always full of jokes, such a funny guy....had a
chat with him in morning..kinda of brighten my day...
received a fone call from my niece..she is soo cute..she sing happy birthday for
me...English and mandarin version...she is such a Cute Baby!!...4 yrs old
this yr..
received approval email from HR for my insurance course, - consisted of 6
modules..oh...studies time again..
22 Mar 2004
On leave, cos accompany mum to TTSH for
check-up...came back home around 3pm..as my dad is back early today, we decided
to hv my 26th bday celebration dinner today which supposed booked a table on
thur, which is the actual day..we went to Han River Restaurant at Simei for
dinner, as my parent seldom hv BBQ food, its kinda of interesting to them..esp
my dad...they seem to enjoyed themselves v much..
14 Mar 2004 - 8.45pm
Monday blues...beside after work, meeting
until now...8.45pm...just reached home, gonna to bath n zzzzzzz....hee
13 Mar 2004
Went to the IT Show 2004 with frds...was
soo fully packed, cos due to there another fair going on, Food & Beverage
Show, not only that, ground flr having some small fair...in end, we just take a
walk, kinda of disappointed..cos initally tot of getting a monitor at the
fair..in end we went to Funan for a coffee break and walk..
11 Mar 2004
sudden receive from my supv that she will be transferring
to another next mth, kinda of mixed feeling, in somewhere she may be mean in her
words, however overall, she not that bad, at least to me..i know alot of
colleagues dun really like her, so her leaving, they maybe be quite happy.....kinda
of feeling sad now..as been working under her for quite sometime..
does ppl always feel this way..whenever you own something, u dun feel it a treasure, however when its lost, started to feel upset etc...been taking for granted......
maybe lately been under alot of stress,...been few time tears flowing during nitez times...however who know i am suffering?......who understand me?...i been treating ppl nice, end up she takes me for granted?..frankly speaking i been treating her v nice since sch times until now she got married...if she hv any problems..i will most glad to help her in any ways..however not possibly i help her everytime...i hv my own life .. i been under alot of stress...does she does know?.....No.......
6 Mar 2004
Went marketing with mum, been a decade since my last visit to market,
haha..kinda of funny right?..
Lately meet up with a long lost friend! Su mei!..she went overseas for studies,
just came back last dec..last week I had a long chat toegther..been so happy tp
meet her up again!!..
Maybe due to relieve stress, at times, will doing some special stuffs which normally I will not do it..ytd when to cd rama, bought 2 cds...costing $40+...then today..to orchard with sis, HMV, bought another 2 cd..$40+...
frankly speaking, i been v stressed out due to work, to make things worst, lately a friend has some personal problem, been calling me for advise etc, even call to office, at times I really feel so mad up with her,....been feeling i been helping alot since she got bf..until she got married and give birth, at times really thinking she is taking advantages of me........realised am i too KIND or ppl just like to take advantage of me?......
22 Jan 2004
A fresh start of 2004, wishing everyone
all healthy and happy. My first gift is to receive a gift from long-lost friend,
when I received the gift, I feel so delighted. Looking forward meeting him.....
15 Nov 2003
Yesterday, we had a relative gathering to
JB, aunties, cousins and very cute niece, a total of 7 adults and 1 children. We
met at Kranji mrt station at 10.30am, and set off to JB. We had a great day of
shopping and eating!!.. and me too enjoying playing with my niece, 3 years old.
So cute!!. When we reached spore, it already 9pm, although everyone were
exhausted, however we enjoyed it! We planned our next outing maybe after
xmas..heheee
10 Nov 2003
Just another busy day for me, maybe to the
heavy workload, I dun feel Monday blues at all, in fact I enjoyed busy the whole
day.
Yesterday my friend managed to book tickets (early bird purchase) online for
"Hossan Live" , will be watching this coming Thursday with another two
friends.
08 Nov 2003
Lately been very busy with work,
maintaining website for a friend. Been such a long time did not update my own
webby.
07 Nov 2003
Went to Cosy Bay with a friend, nice breeze
yesterday........
26 Sept 203
Colleagues and I went to Swensen at Changi
Airport, when we reached there, already 7.30pm, thinking the Q will be ok,
however to our unexpection, the Q is extremely long, in the end, we had to wait
for another half-hour. We were celebrating a belated birthday for one of
colleagues, we had a great fun...
24 Sept 2003
Been busy whole day, helping my sis's
"friend" to create a website for him, it kinda of school project, just
help up the "skeleton" part.....the rest of the info depend on him....
23 Sept 2003
It was my two best friends "BIG" Day, its
Cat's ROM Day and Jess's 25th birthday!...All The Best Wishes to them!!....
22 Sept 2003
Took half-day leave, feeling so exhausted,
just no mood to work, very tired of the work and colleagues as some of them just
so fake.......no mood to entertain them. Reached home around 2.30pm bath and had
a good nap, been such a long time since I had afternoon nap, I seldom take
afternoon nap, as it will causes headache.
Tomorrow is one of my best friend's (primary school) ROM, we have known each
other for almost 15 years, times really flies fast, she will be the first one to
be wed among 4 of us. Feeling so excited and happy for her, will be going for
her celebration tomorrow night at one of the pub at Marina Sq.
20 Sept 2003
Reconstructed some features of web....
14 Sept 2003
Today is my dad's 56th birthday, we bought
him a mango cake which is his fav!....
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13 Sept 2003 (10.44pm)
This whole afternoon, I been sitting in
front of the pc for almost continuous 8hrs or more, because lately been busy
helping a friend creating website, trying different types of colour themes,
fonts, design, hoping to get a best one. However, I felt abit disappointed
because I unable to create some files which they wanted. After the website
stuff, been trying out my palm, just do not what happened, or what applications
which I had downloaded, caused its to crash!! Always I restart the palm, its
shown "fatal exception",
making me really so stress up, finally got some solutions over the net - spug
site, a site which I will visit everyday.
7 Sept 2003 (11.28pm)
Went to Comex2003 in afternoon with my
cousin, cos he wanted to get a cd-writer while me thought of getting a mp4
player. When we reached Suntec, my goodness, it was so packed, not only
Comex2003 and also Wedding Fair. After some discussion, he decided to buy
external Iomega cd-writer, which cost only $199, which is very cheap. So we
headed to buy my mp3 player, we went round and round, however just could not
find the booth, if not for my cousin, I almost wanted to give up searching for
the booth, as it really very packed. People just squeezing here and there.
Finally we found the booth and bought my mp3 player (WeWa Marvel WMP-310plus,
128mb), at $138, okay ar, cheap, at least I will not feel bored every morning
again during journey to work. Later evening, we headed to Taka to buy mooncakes,
same too, packed with people, again we squeezing here and there. Really tiring
day but happy as we got what we wanted.
- Comex2002 - bought digital camera...
- Comex2003 - bought mp3 player....hmm...Comex2004?.......hehe
6 - 7 Sept 2003(12.37am)
Thinking ways to improve my webby...
5 Sept 2003
Our dept had a great time eating mooncakes,
although I dun really sweet stuff, but did tried each of flavour...still prefer
those snow-skin type...
3 Sept 2003
Well, listening to Kevin Kern's Sundial
Dreams once again, which means my mood is real down, past these few days, I been
feeling down, but what was the real cause? this question I had been asking
myself couple of times, what wrong with me? I just dun feel like talking to
anyone, no mood for other things, all I reached the office early in the morning,
just work and work. Due to work stress?, relationship? I really don't know, just
felt very empty....or I just feel like listening to this piece of music.....over
and over again...hopefully I will get over soon all the troubles?.......
1 Sept 2003
Was on half-day leave, because accompany
mum to a optical shop near my work place. We waited for quite some times, alot
children realised today is Teachers' Day, no wonder, haha, times really flies.
It been couple of years since I last celebrated Teachers' Day, yet so coincidence
saw my secondary teacher this afternoon, however he did not see me, even that,
dun think he will still remember me. He is such a nice teacher, still remembered
few years back, when he taught us Chinese language, whenever we were doing our assignment,
and he felt our classroom is so dirty, he will sweep it, we were such bunch of
naughty kids last times.....hehee
M2M
Title: Pretty Boy
Album: Shades Of Purple
24Aug 2003
Afternoon, plan to to meet my friend,
however when I reached his place, I cannot get hold of his hp no. It gets give
me error, subscriber unable to receive yr call now, pls dial again. After trying
for couple of times, decided to give up and went home. Evening, he call, I
explained the situation to him, hope he is not angry as he been waiting for my
call......
23Aug 2003
Few days ago, coz my friendly gestures, actually
turned up into a romance. It may sounded like a story, but it true. Few
days ago, there 2 foreigners, they had some problems with bank machine, so I
helped them, one of them asked for my hp, thinking it alright, so I gave. Same
day, he sms me for dinner, thinking for awhile, decided to turn up with another
collegue. He is very friendly guy. We chat alot, so yesterday afternoon, he
suddenly sms me that he like me alot, thinking it may it a joke, so just
ignore it. Later in the evening, he called, wanted to meet me, as he had
something to tell me. Thinking nothing special, so I turn up, we had dinner,
after the dinner, he told me whatever he sms me is true from this heart. But we
just met the day before?...how could it be possible...?? He claimed he had a
special feeling for me, I am the one for him. But I told him, I do not have such
special feeling for him....as this is too sudden, moreover he is not my type of
guy. However he claimed he cannot control his feeling.....oh...my friends &
colleagues actually advise me not to go out with him again, as he may get the
wrong idea...
19 Aug 2003
Last Sunday, my friend n I went to Science
Centre, its been a long time since I last went 15 years ago, oooo during my
primary school time, we spent whole day exploring the place, we even went for
the virtual ride which actually lasted only 5 mins, however I could not take it,
when I came out, feeling headache and almost vomiting, feeling really terrible.
In end while watching the Omni "Coral Reel" show, ended up sleeping in
there..hehee...later in the evening, we met up another friend, we went for Turkey
food, I ordered 1 cup of turkey coffee, it tastes very very strong, maybe I just
not used to it.
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18 Aug 2003
Received a sms from a good friend of mine, whom
known her for almost 15yrs, her ROM will be on next month, quite surprised, as
she is those type happy, cheerful type, did not expected she will settle so
early....she is the first one to get marry among four of us...ooo... (cat, jess,
lin n me = 4 very very good friends, during good & bad times during primary
school. Really missed those good old days while we quarrel n patched up.
3 Aug 2003
Been such a long time since I last updated
my webby, lately been quite busy with a personal assignment. This will last for
few months, (however not going to tell what it is, hehe, is a secret!!) just
wish me good luck!
C21
Title: You are the One
Album: C21
It痴 early in the morning
soon another day will dawn
I can稚 wait to feel your arms
around me again
I believe that we could
lay down the world
together we could live
the dream that never ends
Open up the door
just a little more
baby let me in
You are the one, You are the one
who can make moments last forever
The one that makes the sun shine
where ever you go
why make it harder, than it has to be
just listen, I値l give you love
if you値l give me your heart
Everytime I near you
time is standing still
there痴 nothing you can稚 fix
with your heavenly smile
I would never leave you
my love is for life
taking things for granded
was never my style
Just give a little love
say you値l never stop
I値l do anything
You are the one, You are the one
who can make moments last forever
The one that makes the sun shine
where ever you go
why make it harder, than it has to be
just listen, I値l give you love
If you値l give me your heart
And I値l do anything
if you give me your heart
ahh ahh yeah
I値l do anything
You are the one, You are the one
who can make moments last forever
The one that makes the sun shine
where ever you go
give a little love
say you値l never stop
and I値l do anything
I値l give you love
if you値l give me your heart
ohhhhh ohhhhh
Where ever you go
you are the one
why make it harder, than it has to be
just listen, I値l give you love
if you値l give me your heart
05 July 2003
Recently been quite busy with work, so did
not have much time for journal, as recently happened some minor conflicts on
work, ended up quite frequent of having headache..
Tomorrow I will going to be a part-time photographer again!, feeling kinda of excited, this time round is my malay colleague's sister wedding, and I suppose to help out abit in taking the photos and combining into a cd-rom, which I done for my friend last mth.
25 June 2003
Yeah!, finally over after few mths of
classes and hard work. Got my web course cert at end of the lesson,
feeling so relieved and happy...lately been quite busy rushing a assignment
which to combine my frd wedding photos into a cd-rom, consisted of 300+ pictures....
16 June 2003
Today, I am on leave, wake up around
1pm!!!.....jus coz I am tooo tired....because been helping up my friend's
wedding ytd since 7am, reached her place around 7am. Waiting for the groom to
arrive, we "xie mei"s have thought of some funny tricks. kinda
of funny, not only, I have been helping up with the photography since morning
till nite, took around 300+ pix, this whole afternoon been editing some the pix,
touching up them before I upload to net. I will be burning into a CD rom for
their sweet memories....so ya...I
even went to temp perm hair...kinda of funny first look, as I been always in
rebonded hair...yup...been receiving good feedback that I actually look nice in
curl hair too.....hehe......now my hair back to normal....straight hair....maybe
thought of perm my hair next round....hmm...considering....heee
14 June 2003
Resting at home today, do last preparation
coz tomorrow will be my friend's Big Day!, and I will be helping her up for the
whole day, kinda of excited leh, ops as if I am the one getting married, hehee,
gonna to get up very early tomorrow, by 7am, I hv to reach her Ang Mo Kio home,
been discussing with friends, wondering how much to get from the groom!!?!.....hehhhee.
Tomorrow will be Father's Day, too bad I unable celebrate with dad, however already ordered a cake for him, will be delivering tomorrow afternoon.
13 June 2003
On half-leave, meeting my friend who on
leave today too, we went to a "place" which somehow we are very
excited of the results. *secret*...hehe...
8 June 2003
What a enjoyable day, my friends and I
went for Korean food at Excelsior Hotel, after lunch, decided to go for a movie
- Bruce Almighty, after we bought, therre still plenty of time before the movie
starts, we again went for some ice-cream, and fruits with chocolate, real
enjoyed the ice-cream. Quite a funny movie, haha.. after the movie, we thought
having some drinks, went to Star bucks at City Hall, had coffee and some cakes,
later we took a cab back home, however, we went to Hougang Mall for some drinks
as one of them wanted to get the Nemo toys.....we had a real enjoyable day,
eating and relaxing......
2 June
2003
How lucky..!...this
morning "receive" presents from birds!....bird's dropping, when on the
try to the interchange, it really effect my mood...rest of the day..
1 June 2003
What a
busy day, wake up quite early, gonna to go to my friend's house, she sort having
a "early wedding" gathering held today, inviting her relatives and
friends, her wedding will be held in 2 weeks times, today busy being her
"photographer"...seeing her happily preparing her wedding stuff,
sudden got a urge of getting married too, haha...joking...
31 May 2003
Just came back
after a nice dinner and gathering with another 2 cousins, we had fun enjoying
the japanese food and oso updating each other info...so much fun and
laughers......
28 May 2003
Initially my mood should
be feeling very good and fresh after yesterday resting, however I got
"scolding" from a "friend" due to some reasons, which
involved a couple who happened we known each other too. Really feel so mad
up, get scolding for nothing... "wu yuan wu gu bei ma"
27 May 2003
On leave, feeling bored, so accompany
mum to shopping centre to buy some grocery, beside she too need a
"bodyguard" to carry for her, haha. Oh, ya, need to buy a pair shoes
too, as need to use for my friend's wedding mid of next mth. Feeling so fresh
today, haha..at least dun need to face those stack of paper work....going to
real enjoy myself today, oh today oso
one of my best frd's bday!...Happy Bday Yvonne!
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May 2003
Feeling abit lost this morning,
maybe due to Monday blues?..hehe..kinda of a tough day to start...maybe just
"engine" hv not start yet...haha...lately been handling my collegs'
work too, feeling abit stress lor, realised my mood abit strange too...maybe I
need a break lor.. before I burst. Lately been chatting with a colleg, he has a
chihuahua, chatting about the advantages and disadvantages of keeping pet, I
really salute to him, he really took good care of his pet, really envious his
pet. Initially thought of keeping a pet too, especially golden retriever,
however I cant afford any extra time at moment, as currently taking web course.
Maybe in future lor, kekee...beside curently I hv 3 loving, cute "lou han"
fishes keeping me accompany. Taking 1 day leave tomorrow, maybe going out for a
breathe and resting at home.
...maybe
still on medication this morning...abit dizzy when he told me
this...heee......
